take better care of myself

Need to schedule some follow-up lab work (& get it done before the end of December, since I’ve met my deductible for the calendar year!).

I’m doing simple things at the moment. like sleeping enough hours…not too much (use to sleep 10+) like before. paying more attention to my nails and skin.

I’m getting quite stressed lately. So taking a sometime to think about what’s bothering helps me a great deal, because then I realise I don’t need to worry or make thing into a big deal.

This has been my worst year healthwise since I was probably a kid.

I seem to be getting every cold, flu etc going around.

I think my immune system is probably weak & I need to make sure I keep taking my vitamin supplements. I’ve taken lots of vitamin C & need to make sure I take all the others. I need to be in good health, even colds get me down which I am sure does not aid in the healing process.

Argh! Time to get & stay well~!

I think one way I can certainly take better of myself is to reduce the stress in my life.

A friend and I talked about taking a yoga class together since we belong to the same gym so I will look into that today. That would also be a good way for me to strengthen my core muscles so hopefully I have less incidents with my lower back.

Another way would be to determine those in my life who are truly supportive and there for me in my times of need and those who are not.

I’ve had a couple of incidents over the last month or so with the SO. Things that make me think maybe he doesn’t really care so much about me and that is really painful. I’m in a spot and not sure what to do. I need some change, but I need nothing short of a financial miracle to accomplish it. Owning a house together really does complicate matters.

I’ve had this rubbish cold that going around at the moment but am starting to feel better more quickly than normal, think this is because I went and bought meds early on and have been taking them diligently, rather than my normal stuborness.

I really don’t want to be on this drug anymore. It’s working, as far as preventing migraines go, but it makes me cloudy-brained and not as pleasured by food. Also, I’m so so so so tired. Constantly. I’m used to getting about 5 or 6 hours of sleep a night, and using the extra time to read, and I’m finding it’s quite hard to do this right now. I do not like it.

I’m going to try and wean myself to the lowest possible dosage, and maybe start taking some supplements that prevent migraines. Coenzyme Q10 is supposed to be good.

Went to the Woman’s Center today for an ultrasound. They were concerned about some tissue in one of my breasts, but they think I may have asymmetric breast tissue. They want me to come back in a couple weeks for a couple more views on the mammogram and if they are unable to rule out what it is then, I will have to go in for either an MRI or a biopsy. It sounds like it is nothing, just not something they see every day. Told me only about 15% of woman have this type of tissue and they are being cautious to be sure that is what it is.

I left today feeling better.

My semi-annual dentist visit: check-up/teeth-cleaning & follow-up on the root canal. All is well—no sign of cavities or the need for any further work! yay

I wrote a list of things I wanted to do for myself while I was at work… I came home… did a lot of other things…

So tomorrow I promise myself I will give myself the time to do these things I want to do :D A facial & other things that I want just to do for me.

Two occurrences over the past week have really driven this home for me.

First was last Sunday – I was loading the dishwasher and bent over to put something in it and my lower back made a sound when I did it. I somehow aggravated my back and now am not allowed to lift anything over 20 lbs or do many of the things I am used to doing. Once I have the ok from the doctor I am going to get back on track with exercised to help strengthen my core so hopefully this doesn’t happen again.

The second was on Wednesday – I went into my massage therapist to get my monthly massage and noticed a lump in my underarm when I was getting undressed. I was immediately panic stricken when I found it. I just had my physical and other than needing to lose some weight was told I am in fine health. I went home and showed the SO and he thinks it’s nothing. Next day I called a Women’s Health Center and scheduled a mammogram (miraculously they had an opening that day). The technician was concerned and showed my films to the radiologist. The radiologist requested more views, partly because of a mass on one side. I got a call later asking me to come back in for an ultrasound. That is scheduled for next week. This is my first mammogram, so I’m told they need a baseline and that is why the extra tests are being run. Still doesn’t make me feel any better. Everyone keeps telling me not to worry, but I can’t help it. I wont feel better until I know I am ok and if not I’m hoping I caught it early enough. I am hanging on the edge of my seat…

These things have caused me to rethink decisions in my life. Maybe there is too much stress (ok I know there is too much stress). Maybe I need to simplify my life more. I don’t know what the answer is, but I do know that I need to take better care of myself and maybe move myself closer to the top of the list.