It was a small lie but a lie nonetheless and he’s been paying for it dearly.
I think the fact the he enabled himself to be really transparent really helped out. Being able to access anything anytime was a good way of me easing my anxiety and slowly build trust again.

I will check this off on the day that I tell him that I trust him a hundred percent :) 5 months ago

I trusted him, completely. I blocked out all my normal feelings of distrust and just let him in. And today, I find out he lied to me about what he did Sunday? And why? He won’t say. I bet it’s because he didn’t want me to nag him about doing the RIGHT thing with his day. He seriously needs to get his priorities straight. I’m so hurt. 11 months ago

If you can’t follow through on the little things you promise me, how can I trust you when it comes to big things? 12 months ago

Hm, I’ve met a really amazing guy. I’m definitely starting to trust him. Hopefully he doesn’t destroy me the second I let my guard down. He seems like a genuinely trustworthy guy though. I’m excited to see where the future will go. 13 months ago

Last night I found out something very sad. I’ve known this family of 3 for practically my entire life. They were always admirable for their spiritual qualities and had many blessings for that. They had the opportunity to travel the world and visit countries like Singapore, Thailand and some countries in Africa as well, preaching in sign language to the deaf ones in those areas. Yesterday a friend told me that the husband just up and left his wife, step-son and religion for another woman (whom I also know.) It’s heartbreaking and almost unbelievable. I used to think so highly of him. They seemed like such an ideal family. The wife was able to quit work to serve God full time. The son (18 now) has two college degrees and is currently working towards a degree in nursing, is a straight A student who also devotes his life to preaching the good news of God’s Kingdom. Tonight some friends and I are going out to dinner with the wife and son to distract them for their problems for awhile and help encourage them. It makes me think though, if this man did that to such wonderful (and I mean truly wonderful) people, what is to say that any man couldn’t change for the worst? 16 months ago