stop holding back

I started officially not hold back this August and I felt good. I’m doing things that I want to do that makes me happy. I’m putting me first. Normally, I use to just do what people wanted me to do just to make them happy when deep down inside i was unhappy about doing it. Its not to the part where i’m being overtop but ..I feel like I am more in control of me. 17 months ago

but i’m starting to think this goal isn’t appropriate anymore.
i’m constantly challenging myself
im not reserved in the way i used to be
i find it easy to engage with most people
i tell people how i feel often, even when its scary

the one place i think i still hold back is creatively- and putting on an exhibition of my work is probably the most challenging thing i could ask of myself right now.

i think, when i agreed to do it, i was hoping that by necessity i’d get over the fear, the avoidance, by throwing myself in to extremely deep water and having to get on with the swimming 2 years ago

went to a nude hot spring. it felt amazing. 2 years ago

You have no idea how much I need to accomplish this. But to get there, I need tons of help. I really don’t know what to do to be honest. What bothers me most is when people ask me the question “Why not?” Oh how I would love to answer that. I’m working at it, believe me. It’s just adding up to be very very difficult. 3 years ago

So many fun things to do in life. Want to make sure I say ‘yes’ and not hold back. 3 years ago

I hate thinking about something, playing it out and my head and predicting different outcomes.There’s not really a way i can stop it? It just happens. But what I hate more is when I think of something to say/do, and sit there for five minutes trying to decide if i should follow through or not. When what would be ideal in my personal opinion would be to just go ahead and do it; and not even think of the outcome. 4 years ago

This is a bit more whimsical then those things written previously on my list. But it’s something I need in my life! It’s such a broad spectrum too. This applies to so many areas of my life. I’m really analytical. I think a lot about the actions I take, and the things I say. But sometimes, I need to just DO and not think. Don’t get me wrong, I am a verrrrry spontaneous human being, but I overthink sometimes. Especially in situations that are new to me. And I often tell myself while yes, I’m probably saving myself from a lot of stupid moments, but I’m probably also stopping myself from having as many stupid moments, as enjoyable ones. 4 years ago

i dont want to be one of those people who look back on life and regret holding myself back from accomplishing my dreams and becoming the person I want to be. i have to get out of my shyness, anxiety, and procrastination. just dont know where to start. 4 years ago

I’m a pretty out going guy, yet most of the time i hold back in life. I have had many opportunities, but some how i never take the step. The thing is i’m not afraid to fail, its just that I feel lost and don’t know how to take the first step. I feel that after taking the first step i’ll be ok. I just have to let go and don’t hold back thats the first step. 5 years ago

Whenever I’m around certain types of people I hold myself back from being my true self and saying what I felt, but now I realize that I have no reason to. If they don’t like me for me, tough. I’m going to try and succeed at this… 5 years ago