stop holding back

but i’m starting to think this goal isn’t appropriate anymore.
i’m constantly challenging myself
im not reserved in the way i used to be
i find it easy to engage with most people
i tell people how i feel often, even when its scary

the one place i think i still hold back is creatively- and putting on an exhibition of my work is probably the most challenging thing i could ask of myself right now.

i think, when i agreed to do it, i was hoping that by necessity i’d get over the fear, the avoidance, by throwing myself in to extremely deep water and having to get on with the swimming

went to a nude hot spring. it felt amazing.

You have no idea how much I need to accomplish this. But to get there, I need tons of help. I really don’t know what to do to be honest. What bothers me most is when people ask me the question “Why not?” Oh how I would love to answer that. I’m working at it, believe me. It’s just adding up to be very very difficult.

So many fun things to do in life. Want to make sure I say ‘yes’ and not hold back.

I hate thinking about something, playing it out and my head and predicting different outcomes.There’s not really a way i can stop it? It just happens. But what I hate more is when I think of something to say/do, and sit there for five minutes trying to decide if i should follow through or not. When what would be ideal in my personal opinion would be to just go ahead and do it; and not even think of the outcome.

This is a bit more whimsical then those things written previously on my list. But it’s something I need in my life! It’s such a broad spectrum too. This applies to so many areas of my life. I’m really analytical. I think a lot about the actions I take, and the things I say. But sometimes, I need to just DO and not think. Don’t get me wrong, I am a verrrrry spontaneous human being, but I overthink sometimes. Especially in situations that are new to me. And I often tell myself while yes, I’m probably saving myself from a lot of stupid moments, but I’m probably also stopping myself from having as many stupid moments, as enjoyable ones.

i dont want to be one of those people who look back on life and regret holding myself back from accomplishing my dreams and becoming the person I want to be. i have to get out of my shyness, anxiety, and procrastination. just dont know where to start.

I’m a pretty out going guy, yet most of the time i hold back in life. I have had many opportunities, but some how i never take the step. The thing is i’m not afraid to fail, its just that I feel lost and don’t know how to take the first step. I feel that after taking the first step i’ll be ok. I just have to let go and don’t hold back thats the first step.

Whenever I’m around certain types of people I hold myself back from being my true self and saying what I felt, but now I realize that I have no reason to. If they don’t like me for me, tough. I’m going to try and succeed at this…