be courageous as often as possible

‘Fear is a habit; so is self-pity, defeat, anxiety, despair, hopelessness and resignation. You can eliminate all of these negative habits with two simple resolves: I can! and I will!’
I’m finding that to overcome fear means a change of attitude. If I approach a situation with a defeatist attitude of ‘I can’t do that’ then I fail, usually because I don’t even try. But if I approach it with the two resolves from the quote, then at least I give myself the chance to suceed, and even if I don’t succeed I feel good about myself for trying.

:P

living my life in spite of my fears, and I have a lot of fears. Fear of disapproval, critisism, anger, looking silly, being hurt, rejection, regrets, making mistakes. It’s enough to make me want to hide away and hibernate! But I’m finding that very often the things I worry about happening – don’t, and my fears are often just in my head. So I want to take more risks, be courageous as often as possible and not let my fears hold me back any longer.

Be bold. Take the first step. Make the first move. Just do it. Jump in head first. Go for it.

I ran up to a bunch of senior boys in school and joined their game of hacky sack and then i managed to get a picture with them for the yearbook. I didn’t know who any of them were, but we managed to all laugh! It felt great!

Went ice skating on friday for the first time ever, fell over once, but towards the end i was properly doing it after hours spent clinging onto the sides for dear life. Enjoyed it so much i’m taking
my sister there in half term.

the thing about courage is that most of us don’t summon it until we have to.

given my circumstances, i have no choice—every time i leave the house it’s suck it up, swallow your fears and GO. it takes courage to go to the grocery store. it takes courage to wear new shoes. in fact, every step i take requires courage. i just have to hope that nothing breaks, my knee will lock, and i will be able to take another step instead of being laid out face first on the pavement. sometimes as i leave the house i think to myself, “i’m a warrior.” it’s a great feeling, although exhausting.

Went on the Indiana Jones ride and Spacemountain x2 in Disneyland Paris – that is pretty courageous for me.

Biopsy results were good. Phew!

Recently I went to a dermatologist to have my skin examined. Within five minutes of meeting the doctor, he was suggesting a that we do two biopsies to get to the bottom of what was wrong. The technicians left me alone to get their tools for the stitches and I almost fell apart. Then I reminded myself: I’ve done hard things. I can do this. It helped! I was proud of myself for holding it together instead of going all soft that day. I get the results today.