Take time out for myself and not feel guilty about it!

I am not totally sure if this should be under another “thing’ to do but this forms part of making time for myself and doing things for myself.

I went to see the counsellor which I had been to almost 3 years ago for when I was involved in a home robbery. She had helped me alot at that time even though I only went for about 4 sessions. She helped me work through the emotional and menatl effect it had on me which I think everyone needs to do in order to work through something like that.

I have now gone back after 3 years and this time for a different reason. I have alot of emotional baggage which I’m not sure how to deal with… I have tried several things to recover from this and to move on with what ever up hills have come my way but I think the one most important thing that comes with any situation are the emotions and feelings involved while going through something.

I don’t do well when it comes to emotions meaning the bad or negative ones meaning being sad, depressed, etc. However the happy ones are my favorite :-)

So I went for a session today, it was good, it was really good coz all we did was just chat about general stuff and not anything in particular. It was kind of a warm up session which I was absolutely fine with because I didn’t want to just jump into talking about what is really eating away at me.

My fair lady as I refer to as my counsellor :-) is very easy going and has an excellent sense of humour which makes things so much more comfortable and gives me the courage to speak about what I want. She has already helped me think clearer and more positive and has assured me too just by her advice that I am doing the perfectly good thing by making time for myself and that healing is part of my process, part of making things better and the only way and time to make things better is in this time I’m making for myself.

It feels great and I am loving this “me” time :-)

For the first time ever, I have taken time out for myself! I don’t know what to expect, I don’t know what to do and I don’t know how long it’s going to be for. But for the first time, I can feel myself easing out, and feeling happy from the inside out.

I love the feeling of being free and even though I am single, I have felt trapped for so long now. I have been single for almost 5months now and it’s weird how I still feel like I’m fighting for more space.

I will get there, guess I just need time. I somehow feel guilty though for taking this time to myself but why should I when I’ve been strong and there for everyone else in all the past years. I got to now look after myself.