I feel like I’m constantly chasing happiness but never quite reach it. I read self help books, listen to talks, envelop myself within the ideology of Buddhism but still feel like I’m missing something truly fundamental. My life has all the right ingredients for likehappiness but I feel like I’m not getting the results.
A few weeks ago I went back on anti depressants as I felt I was about to embark on a nervous breakdown.But now, I feel like I’m just existing. I’m neither happy nor unhappy I’m just here and have no emotion. I know the logical thing is to carry on til I finish college but I’m not enjoying the nothingness. When I was off them, I had bad days where I felt cap but I also had days when I felt I could literally do anything and it would be wonderful and everyone was perfect. I miss those days. 17 months ago

Good Morning,Today I choose to be happy no matter what ! :) I’ll try my best 18 months ago

to the cinema earlier, which was nice. It’s always good to spend a little alone time with her out of the house. It always reminds me how lucky I am to have her.
I won’t talk about the minor tantrum she had when we got out though : ) 19 months ago

I chose happiness today by taking the option to continue my sober life. We went to a naming ceremony, followed by a party, in which my friend was desperately trying to talk me into having a ‘proper’drink and I have to admit, I was tempted into thinking about it for a minute. However , I quickly realised that I do not want that life anymore and the only reason I was letting it enter my mind was because I was quite bored and alcohol was not going to relieve it. 20 months ago

I am choosing not to get stressed out about things that don’t deserve my worry. I am recognising these things for what they are and nothing more. 20 months ago

Instead of going with the choices that only serve to self depleted me and my well being I am going to choose the options that will serve me happiness. 21 months ago

The inspiration for this goal comes from newsurfiegirl’s list. One of those “I’ve got to have it” goals for me: it’s perfectly timed.

I doubt that I’ll post under it – seeing here every day will be enough

:) 22 months ago

I choose being happy today :)
a new day.. a new beginning.. 22 months ago