Hang with the right people

I totally forgot about this goal and ended up hanging with the very people I wanted to get away from. I cannot believe myself. My relationships with them are failing anyways, I’d really like them to leave. But in a misguided attempt to fix things, they told me their perceptions of me. I was like “What? Who are you talking to, cause I don’t know him. I don’t see myself that way, and I definiately don’t have the answers to your questions.

I also am ignoring my other, better friends for these asshole too. Whatthe hell ever, I am done with their bullshit. I can’t apologise for being distant from them, I’m done with the relationship.

I need like a third party of friends that is like totally bitchin’. On friday (oct 3rd) I had a birthday party and it was cool and all, but there were always a few people who were doing their own thing and not hanging, and another who was being a depressing, retarded bitch. She is depressed though, so I don’t blame her. But I still do, cause it isn’t like she could fake happy. And then she wanted me to hang with her on saturday, and I was like: I’ll get back to you. but she kept asking the whole fucking night! And really, I didn’t wanna hang with her. I cannot be her only support thing while she’s depressed. I think that she should talk to her parents more, so that she doesn’t make herself socially awkward (sp?) by just talking about her depression.

So on saturday, I helped my other friend paint her room. It went alright I suppose. Everyone was treating everyone else like shit. But on the good side, I discovered that I enjoy Cher. A lot! And yeah, my old crush was there. I just don’t feel close to him anymore though. Can you blame me for liking him and then knowing that I cannot have him, be awkward? I don’t really feel close to any of my friends. I need some people who can actually understand me, and whom I might understand.

Whatevs though. I have a few like that. At least 2, if not more. I’ll try and hang with them a bit more.

I’ll update later, byee