Have any of my mini-goals come to fruition? The answer is probably “No!”. I have to be honest and say that the last couple of weeks haven’t been very productive. I’ve spent a lot of time on Facebook and a lot of time thinking but not a lot of time doing anything permanent.
I said I had a lack of romance and quality time. There is still this but we’ve had a couple of nights together where we’ve just talked til we’ve fallen asleep, watched romantic movies and Ben’s even cooked me dinner- TWICE. Over half term we went out for a couple of romantic dates. Ben’s asked me to move in with him but I’m being hesitant because I’m just not sure that it’s what is right for us right now. I told him everything that I was feeling from this box, we both cried and I think we’re now back where we should be. I saw Harry again at a party but this time he was just a pretty face, which goes to show that my weaknesses came from the flaws in my relationship with Ben. We’re on the up at the moment- or so I think.
Obviously I went out more because I met Harry through friends who don’t like Ben. It was a deliberate ploy for their entertainment. I’ve made some new friends now but this is still somewhere I need to work things out. I do go out more often on my own now. I planned visits with my Nan (shes’s my favourite person) and I went out with work colleagues a couple of times. I also plodded off out with some new girlfriends and went to the theatre with my best friend. I’ve got some diamonds in there.
I’m doing more and this is reducing the arguments. I did the required amount of ironing, washing and cleaning over the last couple of weeks to get them to shut up. I have realised that the spending time together is a two way street. BUT I hugged my dad over 5 times which is more than we’ve done in 2 years. I’m making an effort not to ignore him or yell back. So far, touch wood, it seems to be working.
Takes over my life. 98% of the time I spend is on work. <—This is still the case! It still drives me nuts that I work all the time. Yesterday I worked from 10am to 7pm and that was a Saturday. Today I’ll be working a good 2-3 hours, despite the fact that it’s Sunday. I do need to work out my work-life balance but no one has told me how to do this yet. I guess it’s one I’ll figure out with time and careful planning.
Don’t really have any anymore. This is still the case BUT with some careful focus in this area I’ll do more.
Still no big adventures. I have, however, recognised my need to have things to look forward to. I’ve booked some Shakespeare tickets for next month and some West End touring tickets to see Grease. I’m really hoping that scheduling in some ‘bigger’ events will make the difference here.
Charity work has fallen by the wayside. I am less motivated and can’t find the time. (Still the same).
Fits and bursts at the moment. I still do this through my little blue book and my black book and 43things but I’m making a lot less progress.
I had yesterday on my own but I spent it on planning. I’ve begun having 2 nights a week to just do whatever I choose, while Ben does the same.
Chores and Homework
Always working and I resent it.
I have enough so I can’t complain here. I’m shorter than I’ve ever been due to the theatre tickets that I booked on one whimsy and a host of other purchases to keep myself happy. I’ve almost paid for my very expensive dental bills and I’ve almost saved enough for a small deposit on a house. I’m beginning to set longer term goals here and I know that after the summer I’m going to begin putting £200 a month into savings, all being well!
Health and Fitness
I went through a couple of days, eating healthily and doing exercise again. I got back on the Wii fit and I really stopped the chocolate. Work became stressful and I stopped. I AM going back to this tomorrow. I would say today but I had Frosties for breakfast and I don’t think sugar-coated cereal can really count as healthy… can it?! 11 months ago