stop apologizing so much

I’ve become much better at this, and I’m really happy about it. I’m more conscious of when a situation truly deserves an apology, or when I just feel nervous and say ‘sorry’ for every little thing. Yay, progress!

Getting a little better at this, now that I’m more aware of it, but I realized I really have to stop assuming that everything is my fault. I would like to give apologies when I genuinely need to, and not apologize for something stupid, like telling the cashier I’m sorry because it took me a fraction of a second longer than usual to dig change out of my wallet.

I realized it after I gave my boss my two weeks notice, and got kind of a cold response from her that I didn’t anticipate – I honestly thought she’d be a little relieved I was leaving after the holidays, since they can’t afford to pay me. But I started to second-guess my decision, like I always do, and thought, Crap, did I word things the wrong way? Am I inconveniencing her by leaving at this time? Should I have apologized for leaving so abruptly? And then I realized that when I gave my notice, I didn’t apologize once. This may not sound like a big deal, but if I’d had such a conversation a year ago, I would have apologized at least four times.
I have no problem apologizing if I’ve done something that requires an apology, but really – I gave her two weeks. And it’s a crappy retail job; I didn’t even have to. And I was very nice when I explained that I just couldn’t fit the job in with my school schedule. I’m so glad I didn’t apologize to her for no reason.

Same for OCD entry lol :D

I found that my habit of apologizing was linked to me job. My boss did everything to make me feel that her shortcomings were my fault. a few days after I resigned I realized a change. I used to whisper under my breath “I hate myself” or “stupid , stupid, stupid” (this from someone earning a masters degree) Now I find that without thinking I’m whospering “I love me”, or when I accomplish things I might say under my breath “that’s because I’m smart”

Don’t get me wrong its not that I have developed a big ego its just that I was a normal person with self esteem before I started this job. But my boss, a bitter old woman made it her career to destroy any trace of my confidence. Don’t think that it was just me. I’m lucky I got out with high hopes of recovery. Believe me this woman was the DEVIL HERSELF! When that movie “the devil wears Prada” was released, I was able to laugh because My boss went nowhere without her Prada glasses.

Today I decided to fight fire with fire. normally I would care whether a co-worker got upset with me for not bringing something from my travels for her. Well she got upset today and you know what? I could care less!!!

Additionally, I have a boss who LOVES to pay favorites especially to those who kiss her ass all the time. I refuse to kiss anybody’s ass but It still bothered me when she gave some of my co-workers perks and priviliges that they did not earn. you know what? To hell with her and her minions. I refuse to let that bother me in the least. All the people she has hurt will be ok including me. I do not need her to validate me. I am a good employee and as such she will have to write only good things about me if required. That’s all I care about. This girl is keeping her integrity.

I’ve had enough of holding myself back simply because I am afraid of LOOKING silly. I’m gonna go out on a limb whenever I need to; even if that limb is over a cliff.

yeah, maybe I should say that more than “sorry!” lol I say it waayyyyyyyyy to much, even when I don’t do anything wrong. I dunno, a part of me says it because I think maybe that would make the whole situation better…or maybe because i feel the that’s what the other person wants to hear…but then again i don’t want to over-say it as much and leave it with no meaning at all, you know? But you know, the thing about it is, when I do say “sorry” I really do feel bad for whatever it was I did…I dnno, maybe there’s a deeper issue to this.

ehh. I give up. But the person whom i apologize the most to apologizes too much to me too, so there ya go.

I’ve been doing slightly better. It still slips out, especially around my boyfriend, but i’ve been doing it less. If i HAVE to say something, i try to say something comedic.