stop being a player

I didn’t think it would do anything bein a playa n all, until it hurt this girl i wanted to start a relationship wit. It sounds reall stupid sayin this oversed phrase buh she was wht people say: my dream girl. She had all i wanted in a girl and things were fine between us until she found out what i was n did before. Things got worse and she lost her feelings for me. I broke connections between her cuz i couldn’t stand remembering how things used ta be.

No matta how much i want her back, i kno theres nothing i can do to get her back.

I wanna show others i’ma change buh how do i do that?

I’ve hurt a lot of people, lost a lot of friends, and continue to do it.I’ve been feeling bad since I met him. I still play but when I do I feel horribly sick afterwards. I feel like he knows. The first love and I don’t want to lose this one. So it’s either stop procrastinating and completley stop or lose the one thing that means everything to me.

I’ve gotta stop my ways. I look back and i just played through more than three girl that i could’ve loved.I’m known as the playboy of my high school. I’ve got the nickname and everything. I think of everything I’ve done in the past and its not that i do it because i want to, but because I needed to be certain that they would say yes. So i opened up options with ten to fifteen girls at a time. I’ve gone through many years of my life like this and never looked back. Until now. Trust me. One day someone is gonna figure you out and your gonna regret it. Any advice on my cases or maybe need help. reply.

I don’t want to play with your feelings and emotions. I don’t want to lie to you. I don’t want to test my skills on you anymore.

I want to be emotionally open. Get involved in a serious relationship. I don’t want to date other men.

I want to show you that I care about you. I want to stop being sarcastic. Pushing you away. Playing you around.

I want to tell you you are better then me in many ways. That I was very lucky to meet you.

I want to show you that I am loving, mature, open and ready for a relationship. That I can be loyal.

I want to make you feel strong. Happy. Secure. I want to give away some power to you because I have no right to hurt anybody.

So far worth doing..

Someone has changed my life incredibly and i would never even think of hurting someone like i did…..Never again! I love this, And im so proud to say that i have a boyfriend and i wouldn’t even think of flirting with anyone else, he’s the best! I have realized that everyone has feelings and that dating 2 and 3 people at a time isnt a game…only ends up being this bad thing of hurt feelings. Yay I accomplished this goal woo!

i just cant pass up opportunities to hang out or go to dinner with a gorgeous guy . its just not me… thats like passing up a full course dinner when you are a hobo. just absolutely ridiculous…so hard.

i dont know, maybe i am just not ready to have a steady boyfriend, but what i dont understand is , when i have a boyfriend everyone wants to date me, when i dont, no one talks to me? What is that, could someone please explain? I am guessing this is the whole theory of “you always want what you cant have” ...

it’s pretty unfulfilling. i’d prefer a regular long term relationship. glad school starts up again soon.