leave the past in the past, the future in the future, and enjoy the present of the present

i really need to leave the past in the past, however, it makes me happy of thinking of the future and by thinking of the future makes forgeting the past so much easier…

ive make some mistakes in the past but never regreted them until like last week. crazy things happened and i just regret it all and just want to forget about it but cant seem to stop thinking about it and cant seem to even forgive myself for it. right now im just not very happy w/ myself for it. and i hope to just put it in the past.

I need help. I really want to do this. I want to forgive, forget and grow. I have not been good at this in the past; I continue unhealthy filters all the time. I even seek out opportunities to beat myself up. I feel sometimes that I have the insight of a gnat. At moments I do - but at other moments I lose my focus on what is important – one day at a time.

I think that apologizing cures, removes or deals with it.

I do not want to be nuts.

The past, the good parts and bad, is there for a reason, every element of it has had a hand in who I am today. I am to into reminiscing to leave everything in the past. The present is excellent, and I usually love enjoying it, but there are certain times where it’s just better if I have something to distract myself with other then what’s happening at the present time. And I think about the future WAY to much to ever stop. The future is such a grand mystery, and I take pleasure in trying to figure out parts of that mystery, or at least have a basic plan for my life. I guess I plan to much to leave the future in the future. This is as close as I’m ever going to get to this goal which is why I give up. I’m just not cut out to be someone who lives in the moment all the time, more like when it’s appropriate, I can get very caught up in a moment, but sometimes I just can’t get myself to do it. Ok, I’m now officially rambling. Good luck to you all! Just because I can’t, or maybe don’t want to, accomplish this goal, doesn’t mean it’s not a fabulous one!

No longer am I controlled by what once was…

I am free to dream about the future!

i have trouble doing this mainly because im a very sentimental person and for as long as i can remember i have loved reminiscing but now that i have bad memories i find myself constantly remembering the bad times in my life.

Just do what you want. Have no regrets! live life the way you want! and trust me..

it’s so worth it!

Jorge Drexler

Ya estoy en la mitad de esta carretera
tantas encrucijadas quedan detrás…
Ya está en el aire girando mi moneda
y que sea lo que
sea

Todos los altibajos de la marea
todos los sarampiones que ya pasé…
Yo llevo tu sonrisa como bandera
y que sea lo que
sea

Lo que tenga que ser, que sea
y lo que no por algo será
No creo en la eternidad de las peleas
ni en las recetas de la felicidad
Cuando pasen recibo mis primaveras
y la suerte este echada a descansar
yo miraré tu foto en mi billetera
y que sea lo que
sea

Y el que quiera creer que crea
y el que no, su razón tendrá
Yo suelto mi canción en la ventolera
y que la escuche quien la quiera escuchar
Ya esta en el aire girando mi moneda
y que sea lo que
sea

a small piece of me

[...]

              Self-approval is all one really needs to be free. Then
one can be free to feel free at any time. Time collapses when you are
exactly where you are at any given moment. The world is much prettier,
more vibrant and enchanting when you enter the collapse of
time. Enjoy  
the    joy   of  being  here        now.
  
                                Oh,    and it's much funnier here too,
sweet irony is vastly prevalent in these endearing waters. This,  very
pleasant, very,  amiable lucidity. To be truly aware is to be lucid,
lucidity is a delightful state of calm bliss approaching but never fully
arriving at absolute indifference, also to be found in the collapse of
time. Love is what love would feel if love were aware of itself.

[...]

—a friend

I’ve noticed, I’m beginning to do this. I can now appreciate actions and words in the moment they are said, rather than look back on them with more fondness and regret.

I do live with a lot of regret. That is something I’ve been working on for years now, trying to stop the downward spiral of hopeless thinking.

Things will happen the way they will, regardless of what you try to do to stop them. One day at a time. You can do this.