(What is RSS?)The sentences that normally ticker tape through my head are variations of the following;
‘I don’t want to be here’ ‘I can’t work here anymore’
I just get more of being here and still working here.
Instead I shall change it to;
‘I want more photography work!’
Lets see if I get more photography work and less being here.
it’s worth a try
I’ve been thinking a lot recently about life, change and particularly the Best Year Yet goal. In some ways I am exactly the same, in the same position, same home, same job, experiencing the same daily dilemmas that I was experiencing on Jan 1st 2008 only in January I felt more hopeful.
It’s not that this year has been bad in fact it’s been a great year so far, in many respects… lots of new experiences have happened this year, work wise my personal work has grown and improved beyond the goal I had set which is an achievement. I think I was expecting something radical to happen, that I’d be living elsewhere that I’d have quit my job, that there would have been some big massive change. I’m not sure what it is I was expecting but somehow I haven’t achieved something.
On reflection I think I am totally held back by fear and that it is my own doing that things happen slowly or not at all. Mentally I think I take one step forward and then immediately take 10 back. I won’t leap I am just cautiously peering over the edge then retreating for coffee somewhere warm and safe.
Possibly spurred on by the situation last month, I am resolved to fight the fear and do something daily that scares me or that normally I would think about for a month and then decide against it.
For starters I am sending an email to someone…
