make a living will

Although, Ive no money and all, Ive nothing to leave in this materialistic world. I would like to make a will, perhaps a letter to all my friends and loved ones.

I’ve filled out the form – only just managed to squeeze in all my wishes into the space provided. The form states I can either get a pharmacist or member of the clergy to witness it, I’m going to be seeing my priest tomorrow so I’ll take the form along and get this goal completed! :)

the original form – should have read the guidelines more thoroughly :( then I never got around to getting another. But I have just found the form online and printed it out, so I will have another go and see if I can knock this goal off!!!

it’s taken a long time, but i’ve finally completed the forms and had them signed by my doctor, who also has a copy. plus alb has a power of attorney, so he can have me put away in an institution and spend all my money on wild living.

the first time i went to see the doc i’d copied the forms from the brochure i have. he thought that we shouldn’t use copies (it might be a “formal error”) and asked his assistants to give me some originals to sign and bring back next time. but the forms they gave me were quite different to the one i’d signed and not nearly as specific. they said things like “if my life is no longer endurable” i would like to be allowed to “die in dignity”, which is clearly all a matter of definition. my brochure specifically advised against those kind of woolly wordings. my form specifies cases of life being unbearable and the measures that i do/do not request in that case. today i found that you can download my whole brochure from the internet, so i printed it out, filled it in again, signed it, and had it countersigned by the doc. now he has a copy and i have a copy in my drawer. and alb is authorised to do whatever he sees fit.

now alb wants to fill in his own set of papers, so i’ve printed them all out again. and then we’ll be set. phew, what a relief. still hope i don’t slip on the snow and end up in a coma.

I downloaded three different forms.

The first two were just your standard Living Wills, I guess.

The third one was a Power of Attorney.

I just skimmed through it, didn’t even bother to download it last week because I saw the word “attorney” and automatically thougth you had to get an attorney.

After reading it, I don’t think I’ll need an attorney.
It has to be notarized, though.
But I know a little house on the other side of town that we used to live in that does notarizing.

It talks about “agents”, and I think that’s just a fancy word for someone I feel would make wise decisions when it comes to my life and a hosiptal (like my parents).

But I don’t think that I’ll need both.

I think I need one or the other.

And the Power of Attorney says that my “agents” (I’ll just say parents lol) will make the decisions if I’m not in a certain state to do so myself.
And the two standard Living Will forms give me the right to decide what happens (like not being hooked up to a machine to keep me alive if I’ll just be in a vegetative state for the rest of my life, or in a coma).

Now I just need a printer!!!

I don’t know how I’m going to get a copy to my mom.
Haven’t spoken to her in months, and I don’t want her to just… you know… like open her mailbox one day and see these forms about my decisions should I ever be in a hospital like that.
So… I’ll just give copies to my dad and Katy, and keep one in my car (a user in a forum suggested that tip, just in case).

: P

i’m so bored of seeing this ghouly goal here. but i have to give a signed copy of the form from the book to the doctor. and probably discuss it with him in serious voices and hushed tones. and i haven’t been to the doctor (touch wood) for ages. i suppose i should really fill the bloody form in now anyway, because when i do need to see the doctor i will probably be ill and not into filling in forms and thinking ponderous things. but but but but but. i suppose i could start by making copies of the forms and practise filling them in, like UCCA forms. actually, the whole process isn’t entirely unlike applying for university. i need to tick the right boxes, make a personal statement (hobbies include vegetarian cooking) and have an interview. and there’s always the possibility that they’ll reject my application and revive me anyway. a fate worse than.

next steps: find book, copy forms, practise filling in forms (while lying on floor on stomach, thus tapping further into UCCA-form feeling)

I saw an episode of Everybody Loves Raymond earlier this year (I think around Summer) about a Living Will.

I thought that it was a really great idea, and although I still don’t know exactly what the form says (got online for free, ha!) because of all those big words, I still saved it and I’ll call the hospital when I can remember to see where I go from here to make it official.

With all the things that I want to do, and with just life in general, there’s not telling what can happen.
I still have to think about some big things, like being hooked up to the machine that gives you life, things like that.

I’m pretty sure about some things, though.
If something happens where I’ll be a vegetable for the rest of my life, I want to be let go.

I also want to be an organ donor.
When I was standing in line to get my driver’s license when I was seventeen, my dad told me not to check the box and started talking to two men behind us about how if you’re a donor and in an ambulance, sometimes the people will make you die on purpose to get the organs, which will get them more money.

But after one of my best friends, Paul, commited suicide a few years ago, and his family chose to have three of his organs donated and saved three children’s lives, I made my decision right then and there that I wanted to sign whatever I needed to sign to be an organ donor.

It’s amazing how certain pieces of paper can make you think really hard about life, and the things that can keep it sustained.

And also… the things about your life and your body that can help keep other people’s lives sustained.

I think about this all the time and don’t want people fighting over the scraps I leave behind.

and yeah, never actually done it even though I always bang on about what a great idea it is and so important, then I find myself waking up from when I thought was after an operation but was actually 2 weeks after – I’d been in a medically induced coma and my parents had to make all health care decisions for me with no idea what I wanted. Lucky for me my parents decisions coincided with what I would have wished, but I’d rather not be in that situation again, next time might not be so lucky lol!

Made a living will, regular will, power of attorney, durable power of attorney for health care and put them al in one place.