Fall head over heels, can't live without you, can't breathe without you kind of love

to rekinddle the love my wife and i share

I spend the day with his family. We played games and made our own pizzas. I thought it was going to be really awkward, but it wasn’t. I love watching him with his family and it was easy to be myself around them.

It’s official. I’ve gone completely mental.

Just being around him, with him, makes time stop. And waiting for him, watching the clock to see when he’ll call is agony. Suddenly it seems 3 hours takes as long as 6 days.

I miss him. I haven’t said it in so many words but it’s true. Missing him- there is like a hole inside me. Not specifically my heart, but something deeper than skin and bones. I just ache. Like a part of my crucial material is gone. I feel like I’m empty without him, and I’m not entirely whole until he’s with me.

But it’s worth it- to ache and have dreams about just seeing him again. Because I know that soon I will see him. He makes me happier than I ever thought I could be.

In a back corner of my mind, I’m sad. Because I know a year will pass faster than we think. and it will be time for him to leave and move on.Chick flick movies and Jane Austen have taught me that giving someone your heart gives them the power to break it. So I’m truly afraid to give it away.

But wouldn’t it be great to be in head-over-heels, need-you-like-a-drug love? Even for just a year? My mind tells me that the pain won’t be worth it. But my heart, and my body, and even my soul says that love is always worth it. Didn’t Tennyson say It’s better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all ? And am I willing to bet my heart that he’s right?

And then there is the next thing. I’m ready for this- to take it on. But does he feel the same way? I think he does but that could be me just really wanting him too. Forever is my new favorite word because that’s how long he said he’d hold on to me. I analyze everything much too much.

And that’s a reason I love being with him. Because I don’t think- I feel- around him. It’s like it’s just me and him and the rest of the world has disappeared. I’m falling- so so incredibly fast. I keep hoping we will be the next epic romance- to be together forever. And maybe we will be.

But then again- maybe we won’t.

I’m not in love. I’m in like. And I definitely want us to be together for a long time. He’s my best friend. That’s how I like it to be. So I guess the first step is completed. yay!

You know it, and its forever, lol.
It makes you whole.

that was my first boyfriend, my first kiss, and my first love. he was perfect (for me). but then he moved. and i said to him before he left, “im not good with anything that involves long distance” and he agreed. so we just decided to stay friends, e-mail, and call eachother. and we still are. if you do that then it wont be so hard to get over him. but the thing is… you cant get too obsessed. cause if you do he’ll think your nuts and you’ll have your heart broken. and you will never forget it.

I’ve felt this many times before, expect this time I want the feelings to be returned so I can stop being hurt.

I’ve been in the position where I couldn’t stop thinking about the person in question for months. It was always either unrequited or with the wrong person. But I don’t see it as much as something you set out to do or avoid doing; it’s more something that just hits you.

but it almost killed me! :)

Even just a small fight could make your world turn upside-down!!! Sometimes it could make u feel alive!!! Well, it’s crazy little thing called love! :p