Reflect on the events that changed my life

was a day where I suddenly knew that I have to accept that I am no longer with Robert.
And not because he thinks or he does or he whatever,...
it is because I am unhappy with our situation- I want to move on and go a level further.
I need to accept my feelings and face consequences and do what is best for me.
the past days I was not really accepting the breakup and could not think straight, I was always thinking: maybe,...we are not all that broken up or what does he think or waiting for something.
But in fact: the cheese is bitten (as some people say- which is a funny thing to say!) and now I want to regain my power- mend my heart and when I am done I will open up for new relationships again.
In the meantime I will be my best friend and will try to fulfill my wishes as good as possible. with the help pf my new friends!
yay!
good to be able to look myself in the eyes again!
honesty and nothing else!

not only was her account deleted, no even all the wonderful comments are gone!
I miss her already!
what happened?
I hope everything is alright.
I miss her big time here.

my cat had to fight hard for his garden (our garden).
you know that cats borderlines have nothing to do with the fences we humans build- so he had to fight for his place.
and he did. lost his last front tooth in the first weeks and was being bitten and tried to bite back,
was fighting a lot and finally made his peace with the other cats.
last winter he did not have a own entry so he asked me to go in and out a lot.
this springtime I made a own entrance for him and now he is free to go whereever he wants whenever he wants.
this is just great for both of us. and it changed my life because now I do not have to remember all the time if I let him out or not.
and we are both happier now.

looked like that when converted into a bed:

i was working for the salzburg festival for nine years. (July and August- full time job)
each year I had to go and look for a place to stay which was good for me and my cat, Kasi.
I never had the same housing twice for some reason.
In 2001 I shared a whole house that belonged to a grandfather of one of our colleagues (photographer- very nice person)- the grandfather was very old and in a hospital fpr very old people (Pflegeheim- do not know the english word) the rent was fair and the house was great! big garden / close to the city, quiet and just perfect!
As our colleague, Ruth was not here, her father took care of us and gave us the keys and we liked each other from the beginning.
the summer was passing by and it was really nice this year- I had much worse places to stay in salzburg before,...
well unfortunately the grandpa died and the family deciden to sell the house-
after we would have moved out in the autumn.
I talked to the father of Ruth what they planned to do with the furniture, because they wanted to sell it empty- and there was a lovely old couch all of wood that you could convert into a great bed!
He told me they would just throw everything away- if I wanted the couch he would be just happy and I could come back and pick it up – he would keep it for me.
He went on a two weeks holiday and we agreed that after that time I would come with a bus and pick it up. (I worked for the film festival Viennale and was allowed to borrow a sponsored Bus for just the fuel costs) and money was limited !
Before I wanted to go- Ruths father called me:
he apologized and told me that there had be a misunderstanding with the construction company he hired and a worker just destroyed the couch and it was gone.
I thought- what a pity- but as it was a gift anyway- it should not have been-
but Ruths dad told me that he had talked to the company and he would force them to pay for a brand new couch, because what they destroyed was my property and that is just not a thing someone can do.
we talked on the phone for that at least five times- I could not believe it at alle- he said: you go and buy a couch for at least (20000 Schillings which are now about 1500€ (1800$ approx)-
and I kept repeating that he should do that- it was his couch or that of his father of kids or,...?
He insisted that it was my property and just said: if you really want to support an insurance company by not taking the money , you just go ahead- they are poor anyway , and he laughed, I will not do anything else about it.
So after rethinking I could finally take this extremely generous present, I went to a nature store and bought nature matresses (all great material) and asked them to give a receipt saying “couch”- I paid 19000 Schillings- sleeping on these mattresses on my bed ever since.
by accident later on the insurance company and the construction company sent me 19000 Schillings each, but of course I called them immediately to clear the misunderstanding and gave the money back (that was a test of the universe if I was worth more surprises!)

this story still warms my heart, you know.
It showed me that something out there sends you everything you need-
all you have to do is look and talk to people and wish and wait.
I am so happy with my bed and the story how I got the money for it.
So this episode taught me once more that the world is a good place and treating me like a princess mostly.
Thank you!