laugh at my demons

Walk on down the hill
Through the grass grown tall and brown
And still it’s hard somehow to let go of my pain
On past the busted back
Of that old and rusted Cadillac
That sinks into this field collecting rain

Will I always feel this way
So empty, so estranged

Of these cutthroat busted sunsets
These cold and damp white mornings I have grown weary
If through my cracked and dusty dimestore lips
I spoke these words out loud would no one hear me

Lay your blouse across the chair
Let fall the flowers from your hair
And kiss me with that country mouth so plain
Outside the rain is tapping on the leaves
To me it sounds like they’re applauding us
The quiet love we make

Will I always feel this way
So empty, so estranged

Well I looked my demons in the eye
Laid bare my chest said do your best destroy me
See I’ve been to hell and back so many times
I must admit you kinda bore me

There’s a lot of things that can kill a man
There’s a lot of ways to die
Yes and some already dead who walk beside you
There’s a lot of things I don’t understand
Why so many people lie
Well it’s the hurt you hide that fuels the fires inside you

(Ray LaMontagne, Empty)

Another thing to fight the doubt: laugh!
A thought that seems misleading? Is it along the lines of “I can’t possibly do it?” or “That can’t be!”
Laugh! Even if you don’t feel like laughing, just laugh!
Don’t go the route of intellectually arguing with yourself, weighing pros and cons… It’s wasting time! It’s doubt and it dies when you laugh at it.
Haha! In your face.

... when in doubt, put on the cheesiest lamest song on the radio and sing along! If you don’t know the lyrics, even better.

Because once I figure out just what they are, they seem so silly. So why do they scare me so?

laughing Jack ass (kookaburra)

Jack was my nickname at english lessons in school.

Do “you” still think is “just a coincidence” ?

I don’t suffer from insanity; I enjoy every minute of it.

MsRandomHugger, thnk u !!!

... insanity -> Rackets

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I’d like to cease doing it, that’s why I laugh at my demons.

It ain’t easy, but being serious about your shortcomings only makes them more. It’s a scary thing I found out.

lonely tonight.

Hugs?

I forget how determined they are until they resurface, and things get really bad.

But I am learninng that I can laugh at them, and therefore beat them. It is hard, but possible and entirely worth the effort.

“just another trick… can I weather this?”

I’ve started to read this book that my fiance brought for me at a used book store for $3. It’s cute and has a funny picture on the front but it has deep wisdom on the inside. I think I’ll glean alot from this little book.