be an amazing mother

momma bear where are you

as my marriage gets better, my mothering is getting better. more quality mom time, less stress, more fun. its so much easier to play with them when im not feeling so sad. thank God for time, it brings day after day and before long, things are different.

well, what can i say about having 3 kids. its crazy, and stressful, and overwhelming, and the most unbelieveably beautiful challenge i have ever faced. nothing has changed me more than being a mother. it was the best feeling i have ever had to become a mother. it felt so right. and now, years down the road, am struggling with myself, and my marriage, and suddenly im not sure im being the right kind of mother to my kids. im stressed, and distant at times. im not as happy as i want to be, and i fear that if my marriage doesnt work, that one day they will blame me. and they will judge me. i want to keep our family together, but i dont know what the future holds for us. i just want my kids to know how much i love them and how much i want our family to work for them. i dont know if ill be the role model i want to be to them if i cant even make my marriage work. i just love them so much and dont want to cause them any pain. they would never understand if their family broke up. i dont even understand.i want to be an amazing mother.