get my life back on track

i guess i am starting this entry because i need a breath of fresh air from life it feels like i am at a stand still in lfe and what ever way i turn will be the wrong way because it might drag me down more so i am just standing here trying to figure out what to do and which way to turn. so i just want to get back on track and shoot towards the sky.

went out to my local mall today and applied to a lot of stores, first step in trying to get back on track.
Now I just need to get a job, part time and work, and then apply to school in December
:)

University life is great. It’s supposed to be. But right now I’m having problems keeping up with the amount of work and studying to be done, which keeps piling up.

I’ve failed all my tests lately and I’m halfway through the semester. There’s still a lot of chances to improve, I keep telling this to myself but I always ended up drifting further. Days just go by like that – now I’ve realized that I’ve been keeping this “barely passing” pattern for one whole year, which gets worse to the point now when I don’t even think I understand 10% of the material. My colleagues who were in the same or worse position back then are now doing much much better. It makes me hate myself.

Up until now, I’ve always told myself to “just do it” and it did help for a while. The more I say it, the more discouraged I get.

My summary of goals.
1. Somehow catch up to the material before exam time comes around.
2. Apply for internships.
3. Make a good impression to employers.
4. Stay motivated about being productive.
5. Graduate with flying colours and job offers.

I applied for two jobs this morning in the field I graduated from college. I am so happy about it, it may be just the thing to make me feel good again and on track. :D I was also thinking that I can still apply to university while I’m working in this field to keep my options open :D so happy bout it !
Wish me luck with my interview friday morning :P

So I have graduated from College, had experience in the field I studied in, didn’t have a good experience, now I’ve been at home for a month trying to figure out what to do.

It’s time to get my life back on track.

So I need to…
- research other possible programs I can take, list them and choose
- ask myself if I truly am done with the last job field
- talk to someone with experience
- get a job in the meantime if I decide to go to university/ or get a job in the field if I decide to go back.

Then… I’ll be back on track! :D:D

have been inspired by previous entry of doing little changes before the big ones can be made—it makes sense.

5 Small Changes to Incorporate that will make my life a helluva lot better…

1) Get organized, especially my room & car
-need to do ALL of laundry, go thru clothes & get rid of stuff
-vacuum & buy a big rug to cover that gross carpet i hate
-put curtains on rod instead of holding them up with tacks lol
-organize bookshelf
-clean out trash in car, take clothes out that need to be washed

2) Get to work ON TIME
-i am ALWAYS 10-15 minutes late now, just cuz i know i won’t lose my job over it…but it doesn’t excuse the fact, and it is a terrible terrible habit that i truly want to get rid of. it’s not fair that my coworker gets there everyday on time and has to do my job of opening up…it’s just soooo hard for me to get up in the mornings, i DREAD going to work even though i don’t hate my job…once i’m there i’m fine, it’s just GETTING THERE that sucks! need to get over it, and give myself a new time deadline to leave the house…

3) Grooming
-do showers at night to save time in the morning
-sundays will be time to do nails/toe nails, face masks/hair masks, practice french braiding, etc.
-take time to at least do minimal makeup everyday, it really makes a huge difference in looking put together vs. just got outta bed look…thus helping how i feel throughout the day as well

4) Exercise
- continue to try to do some kind of exercise for an hour at least 5 days a week
- make weekly schedule of different kinds of exercising i’ll do so i won’t get bored
- get over my gym phobia and get back to those yoga classes

5) Write my listas again
-so i can get it all on paper and start crossing things off!
:)

I’ve kinda screwed things up over the last few years. I made some BAD decisions and ended up jobless and broke. But I’m ready to dust myself off and get back on the horse.

That’s why I’m on this site planning how to spend the 2nd half of my life.

7/9/09
Hi,
My name is babygurl29607. I’ve been going through alot and need help on how to do this. I have no idea on how to start over and get things right. And it seems that everyone I turn to for help…makes things worst. I really need to learn hown to talk to people without facial expressions and body language. I want that future that everyone wants…a big house, a nice car, a really good job, and for everthing to almost go great. I mean, I know everthing is not going to always go great but it would be nice if at least half of it would. I know this short little story might seem confusing…but if you could just tell me a easy way to start fresh.

At the moment nothing seems to being going right. Drowning in debt, losing my fiancee, having to move back to my parents, not having a job are making things a little hard to keep control of. I need to get things back into order, before I go crazy!

I look at the future with optimism. I believe I will get my life back on track. I know that life is 10% what happens to you & 90% how you respond to it. Keep focusing on the positive & working at it & thats what you’ll get. I am now working out every day & employment searching. I’ve got some measurable goals. I’m headed for a better life.