become a published writer

...but the thing missing is the inspire. I need someone to inspire me! Someday I was inspired, but now, I’m not. And I hate that. Ugh, ugh, ugh…

Published one of my poems late last year. Hasn’t written anything much since, but I hope to get back on track.

I have been writing for as long as I could. I used to write childrens books, poems, and stories throughout school, even winning awards for my writing. I have been mostly just jotting things down these days but I have all kinds of different styles and I am ready to make somthing of it.

I’ve always wanted to. I’ve been writing since 1st grade.

People always tell me I’m good but I have a tendency of comparing myself to other writers. I always see the bad in my writing and never the good and sometimes when I have a great idea, I realize that it’s already been written about.

Anyway, I wanted to pursue a career in writing…but of course, I always hear (from my mom mostly) that it’s not a stable career so in the meantime I’m doing teaching, minoring in Creative Writing. Hopefully it goes well..

When people I know read my stuff, I always get “Oh wow! when you’re famous, I’ll be the first one buying your copy” and this from one of my teachers—- “When you become a famous writer, don’t forget your goofy freshmen English teacher” I’ve been published in Teen Ink magazine and that’s it. Maybe somewhere down the road…something will come. I know that I’ll never stop writing. I can’t not write. Even if I feel my writing is mediocre, I still believe that maybe somewhere somebody out there can relate to the words that I write. I want to inspire.

I write – a lot…
I’ve done lots of FREE things – and that’s fine – because I love to write….now it’s time to get paid for what I KNOW I can do! I am ready to do what it takes to become PUBLISHED!
I’ve started 2 books. I have 3 ideas for books. I need a MUSE. Where do I find a muse?? :)

and I want to also be financially supported by it. Is that one or two goals? I cannot decide. Perhaps I shall start with ‘become published’ and work on my views around financial independence in other ways then bring the two together at some other time.

I have lots of thoughts about all this, I will come back and add/edit more later. :)

...this is the one that makes me most proud.

so its not my ideal form of publishing that I hoped for, but, my story (a very, very, very sensuous one) got accepted by an internet literary site. Now my story is on the internet for all to see and for me to gleam with joyous joy… Just the blissful feeling i am getting from this is worth seeing all the doubts i had being flushed away.

NEXT STOP… my novel.

September, kids.

It’s happening.