become an architect

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I’ve been accepted to begin my studies toward my first dgree (BscArch) in 2010. if all goes according to plan, i will be an architect by 2020!

i want to build a space where people can walk in and out and live or work in there. it would be what that is left on the surface of earth after i have died.

I’ve been putting off writing an entry for this and actually ‘closing’it, but I realize I have to. At least for now. Professionally, there are 2 things I wanna do in my life: set up a bakery and be an architect. Now, I can’t do both at the same time! It’s just not possible. Architecture is a very demanding field to study. It would take a long time, cost a lot of money, and unfortunately where I live, possibly not even bring me much income. And setting up a bakery will also take an enormous amount of work, effort, dedication… I have to choose. And I chose the latter because a)it’s easier to receive training for (I live on a tiny island and there’s not much in terms of architecture studies going on, but there are a few gourmet bakeries…), b) it’s easier to get approval for by my husband (which makes it more likely that I’ll actually be able to DO it), c) it seems that it might bring me more of an income, which I desperately want. I want to be able to stand on my own two feet financially.
I’m really sad about letting this go. I love architecture, and always will, and I’ll always get melancholic thinking about it. But maybe my business will go really well and will be satisfying enough for me to get over the architecture studies:) I hope.

... that my husband will keep me from this. I know it sounds silly to most people, unthinkable even. But he married me as a house wife and I had no other ambitions at the time, and he likes it this way. But what about me? I don’t, not anymore. I can’t go ahead with this without his approval, and I don’t know how to make it clear to him that I really, really need to do something I love. I think I’m a coward, that’s what it comes down to.

I really love this goal. Seeing as where I’m coming from, this is really brave.

My mother was a house wife and always showed me that kind of example. She is the martyr, the self-sacrificing kind. For the husband, the kids, the house. This is how it should be. Daughter, watch and learn. This is how it should be.

When I got married this is what I thought I wanted. Now 3 years later and a beautiful son richer, I realize I can see myself doing great things. Outside of this house. And still be commited, still be an excellent mother and a great wife and a passionate, albeit occasional cook.

Architecture. As soon as it popped up in my mind I knew this was it. I have considered SO many careers ever since I decided to go to university – my husband has mocked me many times. But this is it. He doesn’t know about it, yet. That’s okay. I’ll keep this one for now.

It’s about time that I may start university studying architecture… There are just some more questions that I should answer before I can say that I’m there…

The thing is, I got accepted to the Munich university, but well, to civil engineering.

And to a good amount of other unis in architecture…

But all my good friends are going to Munich. So would it be worth to ignore my dreams of becoming an architect and study in Munich?

Or well, not?

Gets confusing, huh?

Any advice people?

Although I’m just beginning high school, I’ve found out that architecture is something I’m serious about pursuing as a career later in my life.

I’ve just sent out my applications to unis for studying architecture. And I got accepted to one uni, that’s a great one, but not to the architecture faculty. It’s civil engineering. Damn! That gets me so bugged, as my best friend’ll be studying in that uni too. But there was no chance that I could get into architecture in that uni.

What shall I do?!?

But no matter what, I’m getting closer to giving up or saying that I’m done with this goal. :)

I’ve always had trouble defining what I want to do with my life. Then suddenly, out of nowhere, it hit me. I want to be an architect. I love art and landscape. I love designing and think I could become a great architect.

Except… I’m terrible at math.