stop being bitter

on his twitter page, he has the motto:

“Bitterness is like taking poison and expecting someone else to die!”

He may be on to something there.

I let most things go, but some things are harder not to feel sore about.

For instance: If you were up for a promotion you KNEW you were the best candidate for, but someone else got it, and then you had to work with them. Every day you witness their shoddy work and their idiot personality. They send you emails riddled with glaring spelling and grammatical mistakes. Every day you wonder how they got the job and you didn’t – even though you’re obviously better qualified and more talented. So, who did they screw to get where they wanted to be?!

Lol.

Yeah. I’ll keep working on it. (That, and finding a company that recognises I’m a great employee.)

I don’t want to be bitter anymore.

I believed, I really thought I could do it. I believed in marriage, in settling down, looking at that face for the rest of my life. No matter what went wrong, I still ended up an orphan. Not that this is a pity party, i did this to myself, became a recluse. I still mostly want to be left alone, even though i can be momentarily persuaded by a pretty face. I am rude, sarcastic, callus, and I make fun of anyone I speak to. I will tell you your music sucks, your clothes are ugly, you have no imagination, and anything I can think of that makes me laugh. I stopped caring about everything since love failed me or better it feels like I failed at love. 5 years i tried to make someone else happy, not me and now I’m bitter and mad that guess what? I have nothing, know nothing, and no motivation to improve any of this. I am a functioning alcoholic. I am self destructive. I am very grateful and humbled by those that love me and understand. They just want me to be safe and happy. I can tell you what I don’t want but I don’t know what to do from here. thank you

Permanently being outvoted by incompetent managers was really a very disappointing experience. Things changed now however and one can’t unscramble the egg: bitterness however has to come to an end now – revenge is pointless anyway.

this year has been a real turning point for me. reading into personal development in various books and websites has done so much to change my perspective in life. there are a lot of blogs that got me excited about my life and convinced me to move forward rather than dwell on the past, which really held me back from truly enjoying each day as it comes.
if it helps, gala darling’s blog (www.galadarling.com) was particularly useful for me on this journey, as it offers a lot of helpful tips and inspiration. i would recommend it to anyone. ;) even though it focuses slightly more on aesthetics (fashion, style etc.) there’s a lot in there that enables you to shift your focus on the positives in life.

Sometimes its better to let go no matter how much it hurts.

i just want to be happy. i just want to be in love with the world every day. i want to let go of everything that’s weighing me down, so i can feel better.

I will probably have to add this one again, but for now, I truly do believe that I have overcome most of my bitterness. Lately, rather than basking in the stupidity of this world and the people in it, I’ve tried my hardest to find the beauty in everything and everyone. I have come to terms with the people who have hurt me, and rather than hating them, myself, and feeling bitter all of the time about things, I think back on the situations that were wonderful or even had some small speck of beauty in them and think, ‘Ya, it was worth it.’ So, yes, I am hoping to keep this one completed. Looking at the wonders in life is so much more great than basking in the filth.

Seeing a therapist, talking and writing about it.