overcome all my self-imposed obstacles

I started to work on this goal without even realising it.I currently reside in a foreign country,where I am constantly assaulted with the realities of everyday life that are nearly unbearable because I have “issues”.But now I am forced to deal with and even solve some of these things.Self-imposed obstacles tend to get irritating when you want to get shit done.So,at some point they get so irritating that you just have enough.You go through the same terrible situations time and time again and you know that if you face your fears and stand up for yourself you won’t really conquer the situation(at first at least) and look all cool like a hero right out of some B rated movie but instead feel a little better about yourself.It’s not much to go on but it’ll just have to do.This is not supposed to be easy or fun.I don’t like that but I have decided to change so I’ll just have to grin and bear it.

Like I said in the title,I’m working on it

I realised that there is no easy way out of this, or if there is, I can’t accept it. I realised that if I am to
overcome my difficulties I have to be ready to accept the negative things that result from me being inexperienced, namely embarassement. One of the main reasons I didn’t try as hard as I could was because of the potencial embarassement that particular action could induce upon me. I can’t really explain it but I feel like giving it another shot.