I basically officially lost my best friend today.
Not because of anything I’ve said.
But because of my lack of contact.
She reads what I write her. I know she does. But I only contact her every few months and I hardly have anything to say when I do.
I think she’s finally made the decision to just let the friendship go.
I hardly have any friends anymore.
I’ve lived like a hermit for the past few years aka the majority of my teen years. I had made the decision a while ago to start putting family first instead of friends, so I began staying at home all the time instead of going out.
In a way, it was good for me. I passed through a “rebellious stage”, I found my spirituality again, I discovered my love of learning…...I’ve grown so much by not being around “negative influences”, of my own choosing.
But now, it’s time to move on.
And I feel so alone.
I need to make a better effort to keep in contact with people.
