artists way

This is my second time at the Artist’s Way. I did it 9 years ago and reached two of my goals. I sailed in Mexico for two years and met my husband. This time I’m really focused on writing, but all changes as I progress along. I love the morning pages right now, and can’t miss a day. If I’m late, then I’m in a funk until they are done.

Last time I took 6 months for the 3 month course, but I seem to be more disciplined this time.

hey i’d forgotten all about this place – so many people doing so many things! hope they aint just making it up cos they’re bored or something – or, if they are just making it up, hope they’re making up really cool, sparkly stuff. me, i still been doing the artist’s way (neither entirely cool nor entirely sparkly but, sometimes, a little of each) am, thankfully, mainly over my irrational hatred of julia cameron and am now kind of, almost even enjoying the exercise. changed the wording of the god-centric ‘basic principles’ which made me feel a bit better about the whole thing – although still not convinced by the whole artist thing – anyway got to go to bed now, just wanted to type some words before going and now i have so…

and ps if the artist’s way works, how come so many people are doing it ‘again’?!

so, poured out a whole load of vitriolic bile onto my morning pages yesterday – well, i say ‘morning’ but i write extra whenever i feel like it – don’t quite get other people’s reluctance or difficulty with stream of consciousness writing – if anything i have difficulty stopping!! (could tip over into obsession at any point – if it hasn’t already!) still feeling highly skeptical bordering on furious! think julia cameron sounds totally smug – hate all the god talk – hate the mere mention of affirmations – i wonder if i’m just a little bit too scottish for this process. or maybe it’s just my ‘stuff’ you know, ‘coming up’!!! went to the artist’s way website, that made me mad as well – all of these people on week one talking about how easy they’re finding it, how exciting, how exhilirating! what do they know? (how to enjoy themselves by the sounds of it! wankers!) anyway aint so furious today so don’t feel so much hatred (towards anyone who was ever happy!) still very dubious of this whole process though in case you hadn’t realised! still kinda hopeful though – ever the optimist.
ps i’m sure julia cameron is a perfectly nice woman and what we have here is a textbook case of projection (or something!)

only started this a few days ago and feeling highly skeptical at the moment – probably because i recognise loads of the exercises from past attempts to be a better/kinder/more authentic person! but it seems that i got the eternal optimism so shall try again and see what happens.
the thing is though – what if i’m not meant to be an artist at all? i mean what if i’d be happier as an academic, a scientist, a shop assistant?? what then? i mean, will the artists way even allow for this possibility…