quit alcohol for a year

This is hard. Social events often involve alcohol. It seems like the people I know don’t have many group hobbies or activities except for grilling, with beer. Or having people over and drinking. Or playing Rock Band and drinking. Why can’t adults just do things without drinking? I guess it provides an excuse to socialize. And the engineers, they prolly need the social lubrication.

When I’m stressed I drink because it feels nice, euphoric. Substitution: watch tv, go somewhere public, hobbies.

Just to let me have a little space, and reflect on who I am.

at this time, i realize that this goal helped me sloooooow down, but not stop altogether.

isn’t actually happening :/ got pretty tanked and was incredibly hungover today. i think maybe i’ll just mark this one as gave up lol. technically i did it for what, three months? that totally counts!

:/ i’m a little sad right now, but thought i’d tell you all another weekend of sobriety is at hand!

haven’t broke it yet :) keepin strong!! :))

i think i’m going to end up breaking it this thursday :(( i hope not. i really want to do this, but even if i break it, goals are all about staying persistent even if you fall back a little, so i know i can do it.

i had tequila dreams last night. i forgot how much i used to drink until i was talking to cayla. do you think it’s possible to be addicted to the SMELL of cigarettes? if you say yes then i think I am. if you say no then I still think i am.

i forgot how terribly hard this goal is. we’re moving and my mom put the liquor in the rental home and there was a ton of it out there on the counter. i guess she feels she can trust us, and she can, but at the same time my eyes lit up with longing at the site of all different kinds of alcohol displayed pleasingly in the kitchen.

i was tempted and i resisted, but i’m still trying to find something that will dull my waking life :(

another weekend without a drop on my tongue, feels really good :)