feel attractive

...and I don’t know why; but I don’t see who I want to see in the mirror everyday…but maybe with help from others I can get over it :)

To my intense surprise, I’m actually getting near to the point where this is happening. I’m not sure what changed, but something definitely has – when I look in the mirror I don’t think “Ew, God, how hideous”, and when I take a moment or two to actually dress well I feel as though I look pretty sharp. I think shaving my head daily is a big help on this, because it gives me a fairly anti-scruffy look, and gives me a starting point to work around. (Plus it generally looks kind of good on me, I think.) So I’m not ready to mark this goal done, but I’m definitely getting there.

I hate society. I hate that I feel the need to be attractive. I wish I could accept myself the way I am, instead I’m way too concerned with everyone else’s opinion.

i don’t think i’d EVER say this..but i actually feel pretty without makeup. maybe even prettier than with it on. =]
it’s always been a big fear of mine..being seen in public without any makeup on. this summer i’ve finally overcome it. it feels good..to not have that fear anymore.

wow. this is going very very NOT well lately.

But since I gained all the weight back, I feel like shit. I feel SO nasty even though I know I’m not repulsive. I used to be able to flirt with guys and stuff, but now I can’t even do that because I feel like a fat dumbass.

It all comes down to losing weight for me. Because if I can do that, then I can just PRETEND to be confident, like I used to.

my confidence just hit the floor after all that shyt my dad said to me..haa thanks daddy.

Sometimes I think, sure I’m happy. I’m happy with how I feel and how I look. Then other times I realise that I’m not.
It’s not that I feel that I’m an awful looking person or that I have a terrible personality its just, like everyone, I have moments of doubt where for a minute I feel like I could be a better version of myself.
To be fair I’m a happy person, who is lucky with the life they have. But perhaps with some healthly eating, exercise and positive thinking I can be an all round more attractive person. Body and mind.

okay…. im going to start by saying that i am not repulsive.. not one of those people you can’t look at…. but now and again i’d like someone to say :WOW….. LOOOK WHOS LOOKING HOTT: that would be a nice change. usually if i catch somone staring at me… i’ll feel alll nice and wanted and then i’ll trip and fall at the guys feet and look like a clutzy freak

I’m not very good at this yet. I have, however, gotten myself to stop being constantly convinced that I’m so ugly people can’t stand to look at me. Now I just have flashes of that. This is progress, believe me.