Have a one word resolution for 2009

Accept myself for who I am – accept my life for what it is…accept my family and friends for who they are…and accept the fact that I am head over heels in love for the first time in my life and I’m scared out of my mind…and yet blissfully happy and not willing to let go of that happiness.

In the 4th quarter, my one-word goal of self has come full circle. In the beginning of the year I allowed myself to indulge in my self. Learning about myself; experimenting with myself; awakening my self. During the Summer, the began evolving into self-discipline and as I prepare to head into a Winter “hibernation” of sorts, it’s really just about a deep period of self-understanding.

Yesterday I told my boss that instead of returning to work at the end of November I would be resigning from my logical, analytical programming job to be a stay at home mum for at least another 12 months.

These last 9 months with Jag have changed me so much as a person. “Nurture” has been an important part of every day, helping this little person get on in life and develop physically and emotionally.

While I didn’t have a problem with going back to work as such, the idea of having to leave him with someone else for such long periods of time (it would work out at around 13 hours each day) just didn’t sit right with me. The bottom line was that with childcare costs I would just be working to earn enough money to pay someone else to bring him up.

I’m so very lucky that we are in a position to do this. I know a lot of people don’t get the chance to make this kind of decision. It’s still going to be hard financially, but from a nurture standpoint I know it’s the right decision to have made. So I’m looking forward to spending more time with my little man.

I’ve been thinking about my goals today after finishing an online life coach course and it’s taken me back to my word for 2009 – SUCCEED.

What I’ve realised is that if I am truly going to succeed by the end of the year, I’ll have to narrow my focus down even further. So, in preparation for this, I’ve cut my 43T list significantly, leaving only the goals that I feel that I can definitely work towards. The main areas are writing & walking with a few other aims left in as wider dreams or ideas.

I haven’t given up my other goals in the long-term, but I want to crack these areas first.

ok! i have had a lot of trouble with this all year… I am now going to try and do a “to do list” every night before i go to bes so that i can concentrate better…also im going to plan the week ahead so that i can achieve more.

My year would have been a different experience all together if it wasn’t for my word – Opportunity. I find myself accepting, inviting and creating opportunities wherever I can.
I have had the opportunity to meet some great like minded people and learn many new things.
This year feels like it’s mine :)

Im really struggling with this at the moment. Im doing a lot of procrastinating :(

in the first half year i need to dapt, but now i think my life is ok, i have adopt to my university life, my new friends, and many things which you need to learn so that you could grow up. so i think next will be learning hard, because i’m prepare for my TEM4 for next year, it’s important for me, in fact i don’t like at all although maybe it’s a good way to test your learning effect, happy learning and happy life!

I attended an all day uni workshop yesterday for academic success. The modules we covered were – Stress management, time management, motivation and exam preparation. All of the lessons I learnt are transferable to other areas of my life. They also told us that one of the traits shared by highly successful people is the ability to compartmentalise – meaning, when they are at work all they think about is work, at home all thoughts are about home etc. etc. Maybe this will help me focus :)

There are a lot of things changing in my life at the moment. In just about every aspect fo my life I feel as though I need to move in another direction. It is the weirdest thing. It is like Im having a massive shift in existence. Im not sure I can explain it properly. It is as if I have been living in a dream like state for the last few years and I have finally awoken. I have failed my subjects at uni this semester and have remembered it wasnt what i wanted to do originally anywway! so it has spured me to look at other courses and hopefully change my degree. My marriage has been on the rocks for quite some time but I have been in concious denail about it. Recently an incedent has spured me on to say this isnt good enough! Its time to do something about it rather than pretend everything is ok. I have decided to sleep on the couch untill my husband books a marriage counsilor. It is hard to sleep by myself but it has made me think a lot cleare as to where we are in our marriage and keep the focus on the fact we have a problem and not let it slip under the rug again. Anyway, that is a little bit about whats going on. So in a way, I have been more focused than ever adn living a true life rather thasn stuck in the same old rut of comfort.