Make my family proud

it will take a lot.i am not a very good daughter, not successful, not good looking, not really talented in anything,....
i need to finnish this year at the uni and finnish the uni in the next four years, i need to lose weight, i need to get a job so i wont be so dependant, i need to gain a drivers licence, i need to succed and stop being a guitter,......

As the oldest son, I always feel pressure to please my parents. I don’t feel like I’ve accomplished as much as I should’ve, even though I’m almost done with undergrad. My worst imaginable fear is disappointing my parents, i.e. being a failure at life. I don’t know exactly what will please them, but they’ll probably be happy if I seek some advanced education. Also, I’d like to set a positive example for my younger brothers, one of which isn’t even keen about high school.

I can think of nothing that would give me more peace, happiness and joy than knowing that my family was proud of me. I’d be especially thrilled to know that my son feels that way about me. I think that often we lose sight of the importance of inspiring our children and setting a good example for them. Knowing that my son is proud of me, my achievements, my attitude…… there are few things in the world I treasure more. I hope to always keep that in mind and it’s a goal that keeps me motivated every day to do the best I can.

I don’t know when I’ll be able to tick this off my list.

I honestly think my family is proud of me, In the past year I’ve graduated from college and moved to a foreign country working my first “real” job. I’ve struggled but I will stick it out and return home in August to start a new part of my life.

Right now my family is proud of me, but will they still be in 6 months? a year? 10 years?

When can I honestly mark this off my list?

When I finally decide making myself proud is more important than making my family proud? (Because I’m there)

Thoughts?

My dad will tell me that he and my mother are very proud of me. Most of the time I don’t see why they would be. So many times at Lehigh I have felt like a complete failure. How do you go from a 3.88 gpa in a competitive high school setting to a not so good one in a competitive college setting. How could you be proud of that? Maybe I’ll make them truly happy one day.

... if it counts, I’ve got a job for now. That would make them proud?
but how will I know when I’ve made them proud enogh to remove this goal? Maybe when someone (my sister, my mother or my dad) tells me they are proud of me…?
We’ll wait and see!

So my dad hates me.

I suppose that means I’m failing at making my family proud. On the upside, my mom still loves me. My dad is really upset over my not returning to work at Haworth for August. I told him I didn’t plan on coming back before I left to work Upward Bound. So I don’t understand why he’s so ticked off. Right after UB is done I’ll be moving into my very first apartment! Yay! I also have a job lined up at Applebee’s right away for August and weekends during the school year. Once school starts I’ll be tutoring in the Learning Center and that’ll be cool.

Really, it’s just a month, why should I move all my stuff back down there to be miserable? It’s hard living in two different places 300 miles apart and keeping everyone happy at each place. I figure at this point I might as well do what makes me happy and just take the parental input as it comes. I don’t know, I’m really stressed out about this because I don’t want my dad to be this upset with me. However, I did go to college up here to get away from it all so I might as well do so.

Grrrr… why can’t he be happy for me?

I graduated this year, and I am working at wal-mart, about to attend college, and have a newborn son. They say that they are proud of me for this, but I know that I can do so much more with my life. My family has always been my rock to lean on during the hard times, and I just want them to know that I can and will do everything that my heart desires. My dad passed away when I was 7, I just wish he could see me now. His little girl all grown up, and making it on her own. My son, I hope, will have a good role model to look up to, and know that whatever you dream is always within reach, if you practice jumping high enough to reach the stars. It’s all in your heart, mind, and in your soul. I wish you all the best in making everyone proud.

THEY SAID THEY WERE PROUD OF MY GRADUATING WITH HONORS AND GOING TO COLLEGE AT THE SAME TIME AND WORKING FULL TIME ON MY OWN…

It’s difficult, coming from a family that is ALL about maintaining a perfect repuatation and me a high school student that is taking Advanced Placement classes, officer/leader in more than 8 clubs and working at American Eagle, it just seems like I’m not doing enough.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.