move to sweden

I miss it all the time….xoxoxoxo So much love to you Sweden.

I miss you !

Yesterday I just wanted to up & sell everything I owned, my car, belongings & be ‘free’ & just move from Australia !

I get these feelings all the time. I think it is because I have done things here in Brisbane & in Australia & feel a strong connection to Sweden & to be there & meet my partner in life. But, I also feel I like it here too but for some reason I am not feeling ‘settled’.

I am still working in this job & am saving, spending some, doing the things I need to do & have returned to gym & starting yoga again soon which will help with my positivity.

Hmmm

I don’t wish though to run away so I have to feel & think clearly about this & not be too abrupt with any major life changes or decisions without careful thought.

I picked out a spiritual card & it said that I am to walk away from conflict but also I have been seeing 555 everywhere & 666 which mean a major life change is about to happen, & to focus more on spirit than on the material to balance it out. I have been focussing on material things lately as a need such as -

laptop, new car to perhaps buy, new clothes & some jewelery, dinner set & homewares etc. I get down when I buy too many things so I am really slowing down with this & saving & paying off all credit cards.

Because I have been offered a full time job here at Lamson, I have been asked to commit to it for atleast 3 years, so to move back to Sweden soon isn’t really a possibility I guess.

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I am a bit sad, but my work situation is important too & to be active in this area as well as follow my ‘passions’ in life. I love Australia but because of being born in Sweden I have loving feelings there too. I get alot of nostalgic feelings to be there, & miss a guy I had met on a swedish dating site whilst here in Australia. (Although, I had spoken to a psychic who said I was going to meet a Swedish guy here who had brown hair, beard, tall etc who had been living here in Aus for some time…but they can be contradictory the psychics so I am following more my gut instincts & feelings)

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I start to feel even more sad writing about this goal here.

Well, nothing is ‘set in stone’ as a friend told me. Because I can be laid off too from the job I have so ??? See what is for my highest good & I will pray for devine intervention on this & insight in dreams etc as I am working, returning to gym/yoga, courses to do, uni to apply for, health, my living situation, applying feng shui, meditation etc…

Going slowly with this still…hmmm, making decisions whether right or wrong (neither way is really right or wrong) & feeling in my heart.

My parents come back from Sweden / Europe in a few weeks. My mum is looking at some units in Hammerby Sjostad that I asked of her if she had the time. I have seen them & have a second cousin & her family who live there & it is really nice. Fresh environmental design, convenient, close to Stockholm & just across the water from Sodermalm with the ferry. Although I like the older styles of units with the renaissance/boroque styled architecture that have been refurbished & modernized inside, I like the completely modern as well.

I was thinking the other day how I am still really missing Sweden a lot – the nature, the culture, the people, my friends & relatives & just the feeling I have when I am there. I know when the timing is right I will know when to move. In the meantime I am doing my best at enjoying life now & here, & making plans as well as committing to what I need to do.

I feel more nostalgic too because my closest relatives are in europe now & my mum is going back to Sweden for the first time since I was little with my younger brother/sister, in 20 years. Will be wonderful for her to see it again…

Gamla Stan, Djurgaden, ut pa landet med Pendeltaget, ut i skargaden, Lidingo, Varmdo, Stockholm, up in the north, in the south, Malmo etc. Visting friends & family. She is also looking at units in Stockholm too so see how this goes.

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Felt nostalgic going to IKEA as well as having a talk to my mum on what she thought…I know it is my decision but the talks do help & I guess universal guidance can come through during conversations so…hmmm

Talked about going either around december this year or around february 2010. We have swedish relatives here in december & they could stay at my place & it is the start of spring around february…if I went in december I would be missing christmas here with family & it is middle winter time in december in Sweden.

Talked also about work options in Sweden & to continue working here to save even if it isn’t my dream job/career etc until I go.

Work Options in Sweden -

floristry
office work (positions where they train)
retail
coffee shops or restaurants
contact options with friends & relatives

I have to look up what university degrees are taught in English so atleast I know where I stand with regards to perhaps returning to studies if that is my pathway in terms of pursuing a career full time or part time.

Due to the economy at the moment & job limitations I thought this would be the perfect time to return to studies ! I have looked at returning to a Law Degree I started years ago, architecture or drafting & design, natural medicine, nutrition or other…I am interested in Kinesiology & other holistic healing modalities so this is an option too.

I have asked the universe to give me very clear guidance on this & also have made a Most Benevolent Request as well as doing spiritual guidance cards for guidance…as well as feeling in my heart, body & mind. (following my intuition & feelings)

I was actually looking at another persons photos of Sweden & the snow & felt really ‘homesick’ to move back to Sweden…I felt a really positive earge to start making plans. I get these feelings as well about staying here but I guess I am trying to go with my most strongest heart/body feelings & how I connect to the environment & social activities etc when with others or on my own.

I had an amazing talk with my dad about the confusion I have been having about making a decision with whether to stay here in Aus or go to Sweden…It was so good to get his instinctual opinion (I asked him to tell me his viewpoint exactly as I asked him the question – as is, what was his first thoughts upon me asking him for his advice. They say that the first thought is often the best and most aligned with intuition…so this was great). He mentioned to go over after saving some money to get it ‘out of my system’ but to still have the openess to come back & to not cut all my ties/securities here before leaving incase I want to come back here.

He also gave me some other options of staying in their unit where I used to live by the coast for about 6 months or so to distress. This was so lovely. I thought though that I went with my own feelings & felt that I have thoughts more about going back to Sweden & not to Noosa Heads despite that I love it there & the easy going lifestyle.

So, I guess my confusion has lessoned quite a lot now. But it is still me that has to make the decision. It just makes deciding so much easier when you can talk to someone about options, your fears or worries/concerns, other view points & often you end up listening & saying the very advice yourself that you need because of the loving conversation in the first place. Really great…:)

Heaps of love & thankyous & gratitudes to my dad….xo Heaps of hugs to him. I did give him hugs so he knows how much I appreciated the talk.

1. Make the decision to make the move & if temporary for how
long ? 6 months, 1 year …
2. Organise passport
3. Look at temporary accomodation on Blocket.se
4. Sort out living situation
5. Visit friends
6. Sell everything I don’t need on the trading post
7. Sell all clothes or give away
8. Organize a mix & match wardrobe that is
functional/beautiful/feminine with a simple style
9. Update Ekontakt regularly
10. Save
11. Have work before I go for atleast 3 – 6 months
12. Do Bach Flower Remedy Course & buy cards
13. Do coffee art course
14. Do up Floristry Portfolio & some modules & some work
experience with Perrots or other
15. Get bracers, teeth whitening
16. Get IPL
17. Grow hair & regular treatments, style & highlights
18. Buy Apple Laptop
19. Buy Apple Ipod & download music
20. Subscribe to Meditainment & download onto Ipod
21. Read literature for prep to study in english or swedish
22. Go on 2 week north Queensland coast trip to Barrier Reef
& go diving in the reef
23. Go sailing on a yaht out in the Barrier Reef
24. Look at and buy luggage &/or back pack
25. Spend some time up at Noosa
26. Visit friends
27. Spend more time with my nephew & relatives
28. Climb Mt Warning & see the sun rise
29. Visit Steve Irwins natural wildlife park
30. Go to more cafes/restaurants in Brisbane
31. Go to the GOMA art gallery showings
32. Plan some travels on the way to Sweden – perhaps Bali, 2
weeks trekking in Tibet/Nepal, few days at yoga retreat
in Ko Sumai, Iceland, Alsaka, New York art galleries,
Canada…
33. Get soul purpose reading with Nicole Cody
34. Buy sunglasses and watch
35. Contact Mando
36. Keep up with massages, kinesiology, mind body, PPS,
37. Do up previous travel photo albums
38. Do Doreen Virtues podcasts starting 7th April
39. Go to brothers wedding in Rome ( couldn’t arrange the flights nor time off work with the temporary work schedule….......:( )
40. Buy Peter Lik photography art work x 2 piece (one for me, one for my brothers & wifes wedding present)
41. Pack all personal things & store
42. Go swimming with the dolphins at Rainbow Beach or Byron
43. Perhaps get yoga teacher certification (atleast practice
diligently for all this year to establish good practice)
44. Visit Tasmania & go on the Natural Bush Trail walk
45. Enquire about studying at University in Stockholm – what
degrees are taught in english
46. Think about work options in Sweden…training provided
courses or short courses there to do office work/retail
or floristry, perhaps even childcare/nutrition health etc
47. Enquire costs for transport containers to Sweden
48. Visit Columbia & Katmandu clothing stores for travel
clothes etc
49. Go surfing
50. Go to the Noosa or other surf title competition
51. Go in the Bridge to Brisbane fun run/walk