sleep properly

i can’t sleep without sam

well well well…. last two days i slept well… and i have a headache now…. maybe my system is trying to adjust… maybe trying to repair itself…..

hope to win the personal challenge…! cant really afford not to watch those things on the lappie…..

wish me luck….

sleeping properly for me means sleeping for atleast 6.5 to 7 hrs of unbroken sleep, necessarily sleeping before 3 AM, continuously for a week atleast.

i have become a zombie for all i know… sleeping at 5 AM and all…. i think i need to restructure my time table a bit, be a disciplined person, and i can save my health and mental abilities in time…

For almost a year now i haven’t slept properly. I decided to add this to my 43 things because i’ve finally realised its affecting my life. I wasn’t too late to work today (only 15 mins late) but i was too tired to drive carefully (i clipped my car on the corner of the pavement!) and now im too tired to do any real work. I think its getting worse. Although I began to sleep better when i stayed at my aunt’s house and all that time i was sharing a bed with my boyfriend. and i was away from my parents’ house. So i think/hope that when we finally move out together that i’ll be able to sleep properly. I do wake up at least once an hour and check my phone for messages from him. Well its not so much once every hour now. I have begun dreaming. Alot. I have on average 5 dreams a night that i can remember. I can normally analyse my dreams and admit what it is im worrying about but these dreams are far too weird! The only one i can analyse is the small animals that keep appearing (tiny monkeys, hamsters and guinea pigs) its because i want a pet to love! I like to cuddle and stroke and normally i cuddle and stroke my boyfriend, but when he goes away or i haven’t seen him in a while i crave a pet . Hence my animal dreams this weekend (he went away).
I have tried all sorts to get me to sleep better. I tried going to bed really early and trying to sleep in. Didnt work. I even tried staying up till i was really really tired in hope that would give me a good nights sleep, but i woke up even more tired. So now i go to bed when i feel like it. which is normally around 10pm. I get woken up at 6:45 but will go back to sleep. I actually get up between 7:15 and 7:45 (sometimes even later tho!) and i need to be at work for 8 and its a 30 min drive away! I need to do something to stop all the dreams and to stop waking up during the night. And to actually get me up in the morning. (living with my boyfriend would do all that but theres nothing out there to rent atm.) Well i suppose i’ll go and have a coffee and try and wake up to try and do some real work …

I have been sleeping in a better pattern. Although tonight I am a bit off seen as how it is almost 2am.

oh dear dear me, I am not doing well with this atall

for the first time in my life go to bed at a regular time and get up at a regular time. Not end up watching Trisha at 4 am!

not really doing so well on this one as it’s 1.24 and i’m supposedly up doing project work, but to be honest, i’ve been on google earth (so addictive!) and looking at websites about the bermuda triangle and how to not be indecisive. They’re interesting though, and educational (I keep telling myself). It’s not as though i’m up on games or something. probably should be doing the work sat on my kitchen table though, as opposed to eating peanut butter from the jar and drinking coffee (cardinal sin – caffeine). So that’s about 5 of my 43things ruined already, namely the all important lose weight and have clear skin. On the plus side, the indecisivesness website gave me an idea of a book I want to read which I otherwise wouldn’t have known :D

Its 12:20 which puts me only 20 minutes off my guideline of midnight. Signing off now.