nogaidentify the things that block me on my way to a relationship
I have been avoidant for as long as I can remember myself. Always afraid of other people, living in my own little bubble, flooded with fantasies that penetrate my consciousness without the ability to control them. well, I’m almost 30 now, and it’s time o start exploring the world outside the bubble.
so, it’s true, i have made some friends and i love them, but in terms of a romantic relationships my resumee is kind of empty. the handful of attempts, of secretly craving for someone, not telling him about it and then torturing myself, do not count.
i have made up my mind that i’m going to celebrate my 30th birthday, which is 6 month from now, with someone that I love and that i’m deeply connected to, but not in a dependent way. 6 months is a lot of time, and I’ve got lots of work to do in terms of working on my independece, on my discipline, on stoping indulging in my weaknesses and faults. what do i have to give up?
1. the comfort of my fantasy world. raise my awarness to the present. to what is going on now, what are my feelings RIGHT NOW. even if it feels like shit.
how to do it? when ever I realize that I’m doing it, I have to stop, take a deep breath and focus on what’s going on now. 5 years ago
