The other day Ian randomly popped into my head, and I don’t know why, but this time it made me breakdown. I started to cry and hyperventilate. I miss him <3 4 years ago

I wrote a journal entry about Ian for my English class the other day. It was very hard for me. People say that times heals all wounds, and I also know that it will get easier with the passage of time. Enough time has not passed because I felt like it was happening all over again. 4 years ago

It has been one month since Ian died. I’ve gotten much better. I finally read the articles about the accident. I did cry but, I got through it. I miss him. 4 years ago

In my room is a pile of newspapers. It has all the articles about the accident and the funeral. It also has Ian’s obituary. I haven’t read any of them. I’ve tried and everytime I start to cry. Then i just send myself into a depressed state. So they sit in my room and taunt me for not reading them. I miss Ian! 4 years ago

It’s the highschool’s first day back. I know those kids are gonna have a really hard time, especially the ones who have him in their classes. They’ve got to see his empty chair everyday. I don’t know what I would do if I had to be there. 4 years ago

I’ve come to realize that it is impossible for me to not thinkg of Ian. He will forever be someone I carry with me. I will be reminded of him. Although that makes me sad and it makes me cry. I’m glad I’ll never forget him!!! 4 years ago

Someone put together a slideshow of pictures of Ian. I cried as i watched it. But It also made me happy to see it. To have something concrete to remember him with. 4 years ago

Today is Ian’s wake. I want to go more than anything at certain points, and at others I’m too afraid. I’m afraid to see his family. I’m also afraid that if I don’t go tonight, or too his funeral tomorrow. I will regret not saying goodbye. 4 years ago

IT’s Christmas Day…I’ve spent most of the day thinking about Ian and his family. I’m sure they haven’t presents for him that are sitting there reminding them that their son is gone. It’s breaking my heart. 4 years ago

Ian died in a car accident on 12/23/08. He was 16. I’ve known him since he was 10. I vow to carry him with me everyday. 4 years ago