I realized something. I have a hard time being friends with a guy without taking it to that “next level.” I realized that I only hang out with guys that I have a strong liking for – the others I don’t even want to hang out with. And then even if I see that there are reasons I should not be in a relationship with him – like if he’s a drunk or jobless or whatever – I have a hard time keeping that “professional” distance between us. I always want to be sexually appealing to him and take it places it wouldn’t naturally go.
This relates to “find out what I want” very well, even though it may not seem to. I need to define exactly what I want, what I will and won’t put up with. Because right now it is way too wide open.
Now, my standard is pretty much, if he likes me and I like him, we’re getting together. This is immature and doesn’t work well. It ends up with me dating guys I know for certain it will not work out with. What I need to do is refuse to go out with people that I know are wrong for me. I need to define what I want and stick to it, instead of allowing it to change with the guy.
Currently, if I like a guy, I suddenly accept all of his flaws no matter how serious or incompatible they are. However he is, suddenly becomes my standard. STUPID!
So I need to really concentrate, figure out what it is that I want – not what I can get, now what other people say I should want – but just simply what I want.
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How do you figure out what you want? I don’t know what I want from anyone or anything. Sometimes I think the more I figure out the less I understand.
I’ve spent my life trying to accomodate others. A noble goal. But I think after 20 years, I have that one down.
Here I am after all that, not knowing what I want to do for a living, where I want to live, what I want to order off the menu, what clothes I still want that are in my closet and which ones I want from the store. I have never given any thought to what I really WANT.
Now I am on a quest to find what it is I want. Really WANT.
tenderfoot gardener is opening her eyes
is that I can relax, and let myself do what I want. Even only what I want. Such a contrast in lifestyle when you put aside obligations and to dos, money-making and relations. I am a completely different person, you know :)
tenderfoot gardener is opening her eyes
I need to look into what I love to do, let my imagination work out a lifestyle that would be fun and meaningful… Or rather, find out the way to balance the meaningful component with fun :)) and probably re-route my energy into the right way, step out from the habitual… :) need to get some more selfishness for it… there has been too much sacrifice.
What do I want from life? And what do I want to make of my life right now? I want to go to University… but what courses do I want to take, where do I want to go? I hate my job, so I want a new one… But where and doing what?
And, more importantly… I want to be with him, even though it’ll hurt me. But there’s another great guy who tells me he’s in love with me. Am I crazy? I don’t know what I want.
well so far ive found out that i want to get a better job, i want to be able to remember NOT to drink vodka cause it kills my stomach, i want to sing and dance, especially tango
I WANT TO: i want to know what i want to know what i want to know what i want to know what i want to know. i’m a teenager, so to me this makes sense.
