compile a 100-things-about-me list

83) I love condiments. I eat so I can put sauce on food.

I think I’m starting to get a journal obbsession.

79. One of my biggest purchases I have ever made was Mac. When it crashed not even two years later I changed my mind about the price. Though Macs are amazing, sometimes you can settle for less.

80. I am kind of afraid of driving, or rather what could happen while driving. Likely cause my mom’s ass of a boyfriend would drive us all home drunk and high speeding down the highways in the countryside. It scared me, and I always thought we wouldn’t make it home alive.

81. I am finally being to like Florida. I noticed some things that were similar to home in the nature. I also have come to love those trees that have the mossy stuff hanging down.

82. Butterflies, especially the yellows here remind me of the magical times of my childhood.

83. I love fake diamond and pearl studs. I feel much more put together when I wear them.

84. I love wearing lipstick at home, though it makes me self concious when I wear it out. I don’t mind having my eyes done up dramatically though.

85. I love retro hairstyles and have been slow learning how to do them with a modern flare. Again this makes me feel put together and feminine.

86. I usually think I was born in the wrong era clothes and fashion wise. I love watching Old Hollywood movies, it was truely the golden age and very glam!

87. As much as I try to avoid relationship because I can’t maintain one right now due to travel, it is something I long for, and am ready for. Though, I totally think 22 is too young for me to be considering marriage in my near future.

88. Since I dropped a dress size since I started this and it makes me feel a lot better then myself.

89. I think I need to work on my self-esteem. Maybe I already mentioned this, but I think its time to make it priority.

90. I also mentioned that I gave up art. I have now began to slowly bring it back. At the very least, I allow my mind to look and wonder with its artistic eye more often, and I often make references in my head of paintings I use to adore. It makes me feel alive when I do. It will take some time to fully let this part of myself out again, but it is who I really am.

91. I am working on accepting the real me, and am making life goals around that. Its hard, after trying to do what everyone expected of me for so long, but its for the best.

92. After watching a Christmas Carol, I realized two things. 1) I need to smile more even if I am mainly by myself and 2) I really should make volunteering a priority in my life again once I live in Toronto. You know, considering I believe we should help other in need, I should practise what I preech more often!

93. Keeps bying the next book in the House of Night Series, it is getting kind of corny and I always say I wouldn’t by the next one but you know…it happens.

94. I am interested in learning more about North American Native traditions/religion/ mythology, but I haven’t got around to it. I really should. I admire their care and respect for Mother Earth, as I value that myself.

95. I really hate doing lunges. But I know its one of the best exercises for my legs, so I comprise and do one or two sets instead of 3 like with every other exercise.

96. I don’t like my feet, I think they are slightly too big, and look horrible without a pedicure.

97. Is surprised how hard it has been to find 100 things about me…an am hoping I haven’t repeated myself too many times. I thought I would be able to list a million things, that is until I didn’t want it to be filled with pointless stuff that was obvious to me.

98. I sleep with my pentacle necklace at night. When I don’t I often get bad dreams and feel like with it the God and Goddess are protecting me, and keeping me safe while I sleep.

99. I am about to try and learn new and deeper forms of meditation and I am excited, but am unsure if I can reach that level.

100. Believe that hot water with lemon or lime is a miracle food for my body (mainly my digestive system..if I drink it in the morning I have less problems during the day then when I started this.)

And that means I am done. Again, it was a lot harder then I thought!

77. I am for sure at this point in my life that weed just isn’t for me and that it just makes me act like a fool. It sometimes makes me feel insightful when I am by myself though. I get really into things. But with friends I just act dumb, and I can’t drive or do things I normally could do well sober. I have thought about just cutting it down to when I just really feel that I need a little creativity boosts. I was actually a bit high while writing this.

79. I love my family, I really do, but sometimes they really just annoy the shit out of me. My mom and my nephew can really get on my nerves because not only are they pretty insane, I have to live with them. Most of the time though my family can be nice to be around.

80. I am very disorganized. I wish I wasn’t though because I lose everything and I forget everything. I just really wish I’d remember things better, and clean up every once in a while.

81. I don’t like card games very much, except for the easy ones like Uno, lol.

82. I am 5’6” and 135 pounds. I’m don’t really love that fact, but I can deal with it. I do think it would be good to try to be more healthy though, by eating well and getting a good amount of exercise.

83. I really regret taking up smoking. I want to quit, not only because they make me feel and look like shit, but they are just another thing bringing me down.

84. I wish I drew more. I need to care more about toning and refining my talent. I just need to draw, or do something artistic.

To put it lightly,

I like fire.

Aha, I’m surprised I’ve not been burnt to death yet tbh.

85. My ideal body shape would be the one in the painting I have in this entry.

86. I’m fond of all animals and living things, but some bugs just gross me out, especially spiders.

87. I want to do something in my life with art, I consider myself an artist but don’t like to say “I’m an artist.” to people.

88. I like psychology and knowing what causes people to do what they do.

89. I like people who treat me well and people that like talk about life.

90. I don’t like it when people say they’ll do one thing then do another.

91. I don’t like squeaky, loud, and annoying noises

92. I like to spell things right, and will tell someone usually if they spell something wrong. I also like grammar, but I’m not very good at it when speaking.

93. I like doing what’s right or good for the better of myself and others.

94. I say man and dude too often. I would like to broaden my vocabulary.

95. I often say critical things about myself, and I wish I didn’t so much.

96. I want to be the best person I can be. I wish I read more, and knew how to cook. I wish I could do all these things on my 43 things right now.

97. I am picky when it comes to guys, I don’t know if it’s just because of my own insecurities or if it’s just a lack of good guys out there.

98. I want to have 1 boy and 2 girls after the age of 25.

99. I want to have a handsome and kind husband who desires many of the same things as I do. I would like it if he was laid-back, had a good sense of humor, was passionate about me, and would have the same kind of parenting style as I would.

100. I want to own a hippie type of home with iron yard decorations, a garden, sunny rooms, a hallway and kitchen with yellow drapes, two-stories, and somewhere away from traffic.

6) I love to play video games. I particularly like the games based on the classics like Ms Pac Man Maze Madness, Frogger 2, Swampy’s Revenge, Super Mario Bros, Paper World, etc.
7) I love the Beatles. The day John Lennon died is one of those days that sticks out. I remeber where I was and what I was doing when I found out.
8) One of my greatest peeves is hypocracy. Our world has too many hypocrites, and that behavior makes me sooo angry!!! Grr.
9) I strive to live my life in a non-judgemental way. I still judge, I don’t think one can get through life without making some judgements, but I try to live with an awareness of judgemental thoughts. When I start to judge someone, I try to open my mind and heart, and think of what that person’s perspective, or story, or reality is.
10) I have an aptitude for computer programs. This aptitude alloed me to become a clinical analyst in our hospital. I am glad for that job and the experience it gave me, but it wasn’t sustainable. I belong at the bedside with my patients.

Sunflowers are my favourite

and am dreaming of living there for a year.

and i can’t stop taking photos of them..