Purify my soul

Wow, it is happening, and not because of me. This is amazing.

It is worthwhile to think about the things that hurt you and that you want to do away with in yourself, and to think about what strengthens or encourages those things. Once you have isolated them, attack a few of them, and I know it will make a difference. Quiet indifference or hesitation to go through with this is the biggest obstacle. It is what being “double-minded” means, and it will keep you from every thing you’ve ever wanted to do : (

So pick something that needs to change, think of what little thing could make it so much easier, and go for it! You don’t even have to look back, if you don’t want to.

I’ll come back here in one week and see how I did. This is so important, and I don’t want to waste any time. Here goes!

What to do to feel clean on my soul?
- go to the church because I want to and not because I have to and confess truly,
- stop drinking caffeine-rich drinks (Cola, coffee),
- firstly reduce my time in the net to 2 hours a day for a week, then skip a week in the net,
- stop thinking about sex,
- pray 2 times a day, not only once,
- be better to people, give more than get,
- believe in God just as I did last year during my Confirmation.

This is exciting to me in that I see now that this goal isn’t about me nearly as much as it is about God working in my heart, and I want to do it now because I see that it is good for others around me, too. There is one person who makes me want to do this even more, and that person is Jesus. That sentence didn’t end how I expected, as I was about to talk about a girl, but this is a way of serving her too.

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This is impossible with man, but with God, all things are possible.

I think what Jesus meant in this is this: nowhere in me is there fortitude to change my heart. I would continue in evil and obstinancy and hate forever without the saving redeeming grace of God. God is re-forming me in His son’s image, and He will do it in His own glorious time. I am commanded to act justly, love mercy, and walk humbly with my God, and that is all that I can do. Even this will be so hard for me in this life, because this body of death would hinder me and drag me down to the pit, I my faith is in the God who saves me and has ransomed me at terrible cost to Himself.

isn’t going to be mine in this lifetime, but I know that there are things that are great for your soul, darknesses that will flee from righteousness, and part of Christian life is seeing that happen, and agreeing with God that your sin is terrible, and embracing what is right. One way this can show itself is spiritual renewal. I am so excited by this.

My biggest problem is that my sould doesn’t want to be purified most of the time. It’s only when I am faced with my sin and God’s holiness that I desire to take on His character and forsake my sins. I see now how only God will ever purify my soul, and it won’t be complete until I see Him at last.