Progress, Not Perfection

Since monday I’ve been eating less, better/more healthy and no sweets. I am not drinking enough water and I’ll try to get better at that. My weight is lower today than it was on monday, but I still have a lot of work to do on that subject.

I´ve been hitting snooze a lot when my alarm goes off, so that’s also something to work on.

School is ok, but I need to organized my notebook.

I wrote down (Flylady inpired) morning and before bed routines and I´ll print them today and stick them to my planner to follow every day. I´m sure it will be helpful.

I´ve been trying to keep things simple and make time for fun. Life is good!

Will this is the word that keeps everyone going…

1. I’m eating much healthier, except for snacking. I carry healthy snacks and eat them but sometimes sugar overwhelms my mind and I end up with a candy bar.
2. I would say this part is complete. I’m going to the gym at my school and I love it. I’ve been doing cardio 4 times a week, strength training twice a week.
3. My internet hours have gone down since I started school simply because I don’t have the time for it anymore. I feel like at home I’ve been cutting down significantly.
4. This week was the craziest week ever in the history of having this job, but I feel like I held it together alright. Could always be better though.

What would happen if I wasn’t striving for perfection?
Well, I guess I would get so much more done, becouse often
I don’t even start anything because of overwhelmed feeling
that it has to be perfectly done. I can see in all areas of my life
that perfectionism creeped in.
For some time now I am aware of it as my problem and when
the feeling comes that something has to be perfectly done I just
let it go away, and usually I’m still satisfied how things are completed.
Awareness of tendency for perfectionism must be the key
for starting point for change.

1. My eating habits (I eat way too much sugar)
2. My physical activity level (I get none of it)
3. My internet habits (way too many hours)
4. My temper at work (I work in a preschool and lately have been on the end of my rope with the children. Also with some coworkers)

1. I’ve limited myself to one ice cream a week and so far I’ve been pretty good about it. I’ve been putting less sugar on my cereal and in my coffee. I’m taking little steps for sure.
2. This I haven’t been doing much on. I was meaning to start walking home from work but I’ve been so busy it hasn’t worked out…
3. I have a thing on my computer that forces to take a 10 minute break every 30 minutes. I’ve been listening to it more. yay!
4. I feel much better on this one since I had a vacation. I’ve been asking for help from coworkers when I can’t handle a situation with a child without stressing out. Breathing more helps.

1. My eating habits (I eat way too much sugar)
2. My physical activity level (I get none of it)
3. My internet habits (way too many hours)
4. My temper at work (I work in a preschool and lately have been on the end of my rope with the children. Also with some coworkers)

I’ll start with 4, I can get too overly ambitious sometimes. Steps I’m taking:
1. I’ve started counting calories, starting to realize how many are in the sugary things I love. Lost weight already, just paying attention to what I’m eating. Now I’ll keep it at my 1700 Calories a day goal and when I can maintain that easily, add more healthy foods, subtract some junk.
2. I’m going to start walking home from work (45 minute up-hill walk) and when I start school in the fall I’m going to join the school’s gym and work out during my 4 hour break between classes. I have faith in myself in this one because when I had a membership at a gym right by my work once, I went all the time.
3. I’ve recently completed my first goal-always get ready for the day before going online. Now I’ll keep it a habit while creating a new one-always turning my computer off at 10pm on weeknights.
4. I think my first step needs to be to take a deep breath and realize when I need to step away. This is so wrong of me but there is this one specific child that gets on my last nerve every time I see her and I feel like I’m always telling her to stop doing something. I need to sit down with her and give her positive feedback. Have a conversation with her, give her a hug. I also need to breath and enjoy my job like I used to.

Good group title! I strive for perfection in situations where perfection isn’t possible. Kind of pointless for me to get down on myself with perfection is impossible. But, I do it anyway…

I suppose I wanted to do a quick round-up of the week and what I’ve achieved, because I feel a little bit down tonight, and it’s hard for me to remember that I am working steadily on this.

I didn’t go to weight watchers this week, because I worked late and I was stuck in the freezing cold and I just came home; so that was bad. The good news is that I have bought a slow-cooker and have made some delicious soup for the week, and have my porridge oats slowly cooking ready for the morning.
I haven’t smoked for 25 days – this is my most concrete achievement, and I should feel really proud of myself for this. And I do, I really do, although the temptation is there all the time.

I have had some really good things in terms of boosting my self-esteem. I had my work appraisal, and it was outstanding, not just good but outstanding, which took me by surprise. I keep reading it, because of the terms used. I’ll write about it separately, but it’s definitely put me in the top 2% or whatever. I also had feedback about the panel, and that was excellent too!

Hand – yeah, am slowly working on that. I don’t hate it any more, and I am comforted by people’s confident reaction to it.

Connect – the bonus of my accident is that I am closer to my mother than I have been for years, decades even. That’s hugely important.

Save money – not brilliant, but not bad. I am slowly adding to the stash, and I have been very good and not had a latte on the way to work as per my latest goal.

My home is a beautiful haven at the moment, I really l love being here. I noticed in the week how much free time I seem to have, because there isn’t much housework to be done – keeping on top of it is making a massive difference, and is making it a pleasure to live here.

I should write more, but I am printing this off tomorrow, and just wanted to say that things are going well, and I am tenaciously hanging in there to these resolutions!