Stay strong

I take great comfort and strength in the fact that I listened to, believed and supported my kids when they came to me for help.

So what that I burn their mac ‘n’ cheese sometimes or fall asleep while watching a video with them? Hopefully someday they won’t remember the tiny disappointments. Hopefully they will always remember that I sacrificed EVERYTHING for them. I did the right thing for them. That thought makes me stronger every day.

keep telling me I’m such a strong person. But sometimes I don’t feel very strong. Tonight is one of those nights.

I’m weak. Feeling helpless. For months I was so focused on survival and now….it’s just long stretches of nothing. Loneliness. Maybe I need a change of scenery. I would so move in a heartbeat. But there’s the kidlets….and they’re happy and secure here. So do I do what’s best for them, even if it means sacrificing my well-being?

I need to stay strong! I don’t mean like I need to hit the gym or anything, I mean emotionally strong. It isn’t right to let him control me….it’s ridiculous, and it’s ruining me. It is time for me to step up and stand up for myself, as every girl should.

Spiritualy…
Mentaly…
Emotionaly…