be a better person

I have to…if not for anything else in the world…for the lil man who is so ridiculously in love with me. Mommy loves you RiRi, my monkey.

Compile a list of 43 (or so) facts about myself.

1. I have always been a quite, calm person.
2. I made a conscience choice in 3rd grade to speak only the truth (I used to tell great whoppers!)
3. I am ¾ Italian and ¼ Native American Indian – Pima/Gila Valley River Tribe, AZ. My son found this out through DNA testing, quite interesting.
4. I love all kinds of foods. But especially: pizza, vegetables, Mexican food, and the Rock-N-Roll Yummy Roll ;D
5. I drink one Starbucks Mocha Frappachino as my daily sinful indulgence.
6. I love animals, I connect with them. I wanted to be a veterinarian when I grew up.
7. I also wanted to be a Flight Attendant, and think I still do.
8. My friends say I have a claming effect on them.
9. I am a daughter, sister, wife, mother, and all that jazz, and friend to my friends.
10. I work as a Construction Co. Office Manager & Rental Property Manager, and Snow Board Instructor.

11. I taught Sunday School for many, many years.
12. I love to read.
13. I get cranky when I have to drive a crappy car, (Which, thankfully is almost never).
14. I believe staunchly in the “Golden Rule.”
15. I think I’d like to learn to golf.
16. I am too easily hurt by others and what they think of me.
17. I internalize pains and hurts and only share this with others if I know it will make a difference.
18. I value “alone” time.
19. I really like to sleep (if I can sleep well).
20. I have worn my right knee cap, to the point that I now have to learn how to live with bad knees. But I vow to remain active, fit and keep snowboarding.

22. I don’t feel like I’m a very creative, but when I try new things I often surprise myself to my delight.
23. I have always wanted to volunteer with the Peace Corps, and still might.
24. I hate gossip.
25. I like things clean, neat and tidy.
26. I’m not a great cook, but I can hold my own in the kitchen and I can also make one mean lasagna dish.
27. I have fallen in love and been broken hearted.
28. I like small places.
29. I hate to shop for clothes, but like a classy, well put together wardrobe.
30. I can be very timid, but I can act like I’m not.

31. I think I could live very happily without all this material stuff.
32. I would like to travel abroad, volunteer and teach english.
33. I believe there is no such thing as “bad weather.” I love both a beautifully wicked winter snowstorm and the warm and wild summer lightning storm.
34. I am presently at a very conflicting and emotional crossroad in my life. I am in search of the names of these roads, and contemplating which one to take, without burning all my bridges in the process….
35. I used to play the piano, and think I should pick it up again. It both soothes my soul and brings me joy…
36. I am very grateful for the opportunity and blessings of and love living in the mountains of SoCal.
37. I am a silent dreamer…

This is a work in progress….

“You must do the thing you think you cannot do”
Eleanor Roosevelt

Steps to becoming a Better Person.

5. Find my passions. Decide which path I want to take. Redefine, reconnect, and embrace the person I’m becoming. Find my new purpose in life.

1. I love to work with and give to others, so my short term volunteer work will be at the Loma Linda Children’s Hospital.

2. I love to be outdoors, and love snow sports, so I will continue to snowboard, ski and instruct.

3. I will pursue my goal to become a flight attendant, so I must get that resume done and start my application process.

4. I will volunteer 6 months at the Namaste Children’s Home in Pokhara, Nepal, so I must decide on my time frame, get my vaccinations and start my application process. I will not commit to any one organization. First I will familiarize myself with the city and its people. Then I will rove the city in search of the right opportunities both within the city and at the Tibetan Refugee Camps, and I will find my place…

5. I should also volunteer in Costa Rica, if only to learn Spanish, so maybe that will be summer of 2011.

I really really wanna try to stop letting people, especially perfect strangers piss me off. I can’t change the ignorant people around me, so there’s no reason to get upset but I can’t help it sometimes…they’re so annoying.

My problem is, I just don’t care about people, unless it effects me. There’s only one person I can genuinely say I care about, and it makes me feel terrible that I only give a shit about one person in my life. If somebody I knew died, I wouldn’t feel bad for the family. It’s life, get over it.

I need to change my attitude and my outlook on life, then hopefully I’ll become a better person. I hope.

Starting today, I’m going to live my life right. Not right by other people’s standards, like I was trying to do up until now, but by my own. I know what’s best for me and I’m going to do what I can do have everything I want in life.

http://www.cbsnews.com/video/watch/?id=5290464n
48hours mystery

his story changed my perspective..
I recommend this to anyone who’s looking for a reason to GO ON

Just recently a couple people in my family bluntly pointed out some things about myself that I knew were there but didn’t know it was to that extent…I am the black sheep in my family because I have done some pretty bad stuff in my life and Im 30 years old now and am still making the same mistakes…I really don’t know what to do to change. I know I need to get a job and become a little more independant. I need to stop drinking and taking pills….I just don’t know how.

Goal: Embrace Life…

I choose to travel the road of my future with grace and dignity. I choose to continue to grow in a graceful, confident and spirited manner. I choose to continue my pursuit in personal growth, and actively seek personal actualization, understanding, fulfilling and utilizing my individual potential. I choose to make my life choices with vision, kindness, integrity, love and passion.

I choose to evolve from the experienced, accomplished, centered person I am today, into a beautiful matured woman, body, mind and soul. I choose to continue to seek inner peace and contentment, and to forevermore value the importance of and maintain a positive, uplifting, attitude.

I choose to always remind myself that, I am the dreamer of my dream, and I want my dream to be a blessing, not a curse, both to myself and to others as well. I choose to never give up. To maintain a sense of humor and have fun. To take pleasure in and delight in the wonders of life. I choose to find meaningful activity and keep industriously busy, while welcoming and indulging in the side companion of reflective rest and finding comfort in peaceful nothingness. I choose to volunteer where I can, be of service to others, and continue to make a difference in the world around me.

I choose to learn, memorize and maintain a new mantra:I refuse fear a place in my life or my mind, I choose unconditional love as the only way to live. I choose to continue to seek inner peace and contentment, and to forevermore value the importance of and maintain a positive, uplifting, attitude. I choose to perpetually give my best, to embrace and enjoy life as it comes, and to look forward to my tomorrows with inquisitive and hopeful expectation.