stop getting hurt

I had a great mood, everything was perfect, but then he just tells me something harsh, and then she’s fine, and my mood is gone…
Im trying to be happy, so I dont bug people around me, but then..
I dont blame her, mabe I for some reason can annoy certain people, but why do I care??
This caring thing is something I should stop doing, being more thick-skinned, and kind of “whatever” kind of person…
Damn… Now I should spend another hour to get my mood back on..
pooofff..

today i felt like bursting into tears me a guy i dated thinks he loves me, he sent so many textes it just made me feel so hurt and guitly, that maybe i do love him back? i dont know whether i do, i just dont want to deal with it. my friend at work then just followed me about and i realli just wanted to cry, and i just wished shed go and leave me, im had such a shite day and its xmas tomoro, please god help me smile, be happy, creative , be energetic again