let go of grudges

i hold a lot of grudges, its not healthy
my grudges
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shouldnt use names i guess

those are the biggies

grrrrrrr i’ve been holding onto something for almost three months now, and no matter how much i try to let it go, i just can’t shake the anger and resentment. i want to, NEED to get rid of it. it’s poisoning everything – i can’t stop obsessing about what happened, i keep playing it over and over in my head, so every day it’s like the anger is fresh. how do i stop it? the constant malcontent spills over into everything and is starting to effect my work and my relationship. wait a second – i shouldn’t be letting anything get to me so that its affecting my work, that’s my paycheck. so we definitely have to figure this out…

There might be some small grudglings left in my subconscious somewhere, but once I let go of the ones I was aware of, it was very liberating. Once, I heard someone else say, “Nobody rents space in MY head”. Another good analogy is that of the poisonous snakebite: “It’s not the bite that kills you, it’s the poison that you have in your veins”.

Yeah, I guess I’m all growd up now!!!!

i’ve grown up and gotten over it. i’ll just forgive and forget. too much energy is wasted holding grudges and its something i dont need in my life now or ever. i’ll just love every1 for who they are.

I felt she (lets call her alice) was replacing me as my cousins best freind. I mean when my cuz got here we did everything together. Then, one of my friends becomes friends with her (my cuz lets call her cindy) and they wud go places and ask me to come, but id say no coz u kno threes a croud! anyways one day i agreed and it was as i thought it wud be- them talking about stuff they did ect and i felt left out so i started complaing that i was bored and told cindy how annoying alice was so she thought it too, which she did. So now cindy was on my side, well i had my cousin bak for a while. we hung out and stuff, it was like before. cindy recently had a tiff with alice coz alice asked her why she didnt want to hang out nemore. I was glad, sad to say. Then, cindy wanted to reconcile with alice and they suggested we all get together for lunch sometime. I was annoyed and am holding a grudge against alice for doing annoying things and saying she meant to do them. I am also holding a grudge against cindy for forgiving her and being inconsiderate about the way she treats me. Anyway, the basis of the grudge was due to me being jealous that one of my friends never calls me anymore but instead calls my cousin and wen they are alrite with each other act liike they dont need me. Gosh. i’m thinking this shud be in the jealousy section! but i just really want to let go and forgive. coz i used to have fun with alice before cindy came and i have fun with cindy. i just wish i could not feel like i’m being pushed aside wheni wish the old saying 2’s company, 3’s a crowd didnt have to be true. I would love to give up the grudge and stop the jealousy. its really eating me up.HELP!!!!