practice self-discipline

Shall I wste all my days with work?
No communication, no sports, no fun?

but I always have the impression that my problem lies somewhere else.

Not having one percent of it. have to develop and have it for lifetime.

to that bit of self-discipline I had… I can’t find it anywhere!
before it gets any worse (worse? am I kidding? how could it possibly get much worse?), I should quickly get into practicing this again. practice makes perfect (or so they say) and that fits well with my streak of impossible perfectionism… :)

no, I don’t really aim for perfect with this, just for functioning. I’m sure it makes a lot of sense to train my self-discipline gradually. I need to think in small time units or else it’s just too scary, somehow. ^{imagining every day at the library for the next month, for example, is clearly overdoing it… even though I actually like the library.}

I felt very low last night, mainly because I know I can work much harder in my studies and waste so much less time. So I’ll stop this lethargy before my depressed laziness begins to self perpetuate and a I yentz myself over.

Last year when I was training for my triathlon, the only thing that mattered to me, was my triathlon. I didn’t have to motivate myself. Passion was the driving force. I had just learned how to swim & how to ride a bike and every training day was filled with excitement & getting my body ready for my Olympic distance race was the most important thing in my life…

I’m not one to mindlessly do things in the name of self discipline. I’m driven by passion. When the passion is there, I do what it takes.

Maybe, just maybe, I’m alright the way I am !!!

Starting on Sunday, I will return to the routine of rising at 5:30AM each day.

Say goodbye to the old.

Self discipline means trusting myself.

i really need to practice self discipline from now on. today, is a really bad day, just because i didn’t discipline; didn’t see the schedule; missed the class; my paper still not finish; etc. and its like the habit every year, i’m tired of it. i don’t wanna feel any regret again just because i’m not discipline.
so i will practice this self discipline, and promise my self i will start this now. and today i will have finish my job in two hours.

Self discipline is remembering what you want.