be more vocal

Got in a little spat the other day with my mom due to the fact that her husband felt the need to tell her to choose him or me on a certain situation. I pretty much wanted to punch him in the face. Regardless of his meaning, I felt that was the first notch on the totem pole for me. A mother should never be placed in a situation like that, regardless of terms. And besides, he was in Italy and didn’t know wtf we were talking about.

Anyways, I’m just going to wait and see how things play out. Going there this weekend, should be awkwardly interesting. My whole family despises him and feels as though he is manipulating my mother. I really have no opinion other than i treat him with respect so I deserve it back.

On another note, I believe in being the bigger man in situations, but I’m tired of letting assholes get the last word. From my own experiences and other, this first year of college education has exposed me to the iconic douchebag. And next time I hear someone say something disrespectful to any lady, I’m going to solve the problem.

Wow, that felt good. Oh and Michael Jackson died today, I can’t justify him resting in peace, because hes a suspected child molester, but Michael, you were a damn good entertainer.

I always have problems getting my words out, I’m more likely to stay quiet than to speak whats really on my mind. I’ve improved greatly over the past years and have been able to get a lot done. I can only improve from this point.

This may sound gay i know, but for like the first time ever in class today, i didnt feel nervous about voicing my opinion on a subject or answering a question at all. I actually answered a question and voiced opinions when i was asked for. May seem small i know but i done it =D

Like, i think i should participate more in class activities.
I think i’ve many things to say, but sometimes i’d rather be silent – and that’s killing me.

I used to think i don’t have to prove anything to anybody, now i can see it’s going wrong. I don’t feel right.

Oh yea i will say a lot, i will.