So, I’ve been thinking about this problem I have, which basically amounts to letting my mind wander when I should be focusing one Just One Thing. Quite frankly, lists don’t work for me in that way, I do find them handy for organising my thoughts but if it’s something to be done, well there’s the next thing, and the thing after that, and is this the best order to do things in, and what is missing, and what in the end is the result and do I really want that anyway.
No! I say. This is a good tool for making a sequence of instructions and I’m pretty good at that, once I’ve figured out what needs to be done, I guess. And, no, it’s not like a computer program that I can run over and over until I get it working right, I mean I have one shot at it.
“Make a list!” my old boss used to say, how could I – I was the embodiment of that list . it wasn’t ever the lack of a list that was the problem, it was the constant interruptions and interruptions of interruptions that was always the real problem, even when I was teaching the list. No exception handling capability, no comprehension of the need for triage… (first of the first digression)
Well that’s the first digression, on to the second. See I’ve figured this out. I am gonna beat this, one baby step at a time. See, baby steps are not itemisable. They are by necessity experimental, testing, sometimes furtive or imperceptible, sometimes immodestly bold. Baby steps and semi-random walk. Maybe they have not always taken me where I expected to go, but they always took me someplace different.
And flow. There is a lot to be said about flow, and being in the groove, the Zone, but this is a digression from the second diversion and if I can stay in this little bit of not quite fully formed one to break the Zone barrier I might just get back onto track and in the groove I started out on.
This is how I make my lists. And you might wonder that they ever become with all this turbulance going on, but they do, they form a shape and the shape guides me right into the meta zone, but that’s not where I need to be! I need to be in the Zone! In the Zone there is Just One Thing. What you are doing is all there is, there is no list, no concept of the zone, because when you are the flow, everything moves, all is as one, here and now. No time no pressure just the moment.
I think I might be on a fatal diversion now, but there’s just one thing. The one is two. The Moment and the Vector. Now I could start of with the meta zone zone navigator in the absence of a well-rehearsed plan, but that would be besides the point up there in the meta-zone. When of course the point is: I’ve got to get something done.
Right here, right now, Zone focused. A monte-carlo waltz through the shape of the moment to test and probe and find the form of the singularity, to embody the point.
And not miss it completely.
