i want to be pretty

Have more confidence in myself is kind of why i put this goal up. 5 months ago

I never will feel pretty or be pretty inside as well as out…I wake up and think that my looks doesn’t matter but when people stare at you. You get the feeling, is my looks that repulsive for someone call me ugly.Only certain people will understand this since they’ve been through it themselves.Hardly look in mirror without being depressed and even suicidal.Being compared to everyone and not measuring up. All that adds up to is being a fail.I tried putting on makeup but don’t know how apply it so my ugliness would go away nor do have funds to supply my vanity.I will never achieve my goals ’’ being pretty’‘since loser never achieve anything worth while other than to willow in pathetic dribble they call writing.I use to want more than being pretty but have seen how other react to ’’the blessed ones’.I want that admiration and don’t want to be just ugly girl….(I must be smart….or must be nerd…or into books).I want be perfect… because I am nothing. 6 months ago