trust my intuition

I’ve realised I’m quite influenced by others and probably fear making mistakes….I’m really starting to listen to my gut for what “feels” right.

After attending a performance last week, I felt an inner nudge to contact the performer with an idea about what would expand his market. This is weird for me. I have never done anything like that, but the nudge is lingering. So I followed up on it with action – I emailed the person my idea.

Just before my doctor began my ultra-sound I told everyone in the room that I knew my baby was a girl and she would measure at exactly 18 weeks (Doctor had been saying I was 17 weeks 4 days, by his calculations).

I love my doctor. He just gave me this look like, “You’re crazy, but whatever… let’s just find out!” He cracks me up.

Guess what – I was right! I even amazed myself!

There’s a situation that I’m involved and have been involved in for the past year where I’m really trying to trust my intuition. It’s kind of hard, because though I feel very strongly about continuing in one direction, people around me feel like I should go in the other direction.

I’m a little afraid that maybe I’m just lying to myself, or seeing what I want to see, but I REALLY don’t think that’s it. My intuition has NEVER led me astray before. Even if things didn’t work out completely like I thought they would, what I originally thought was correct was still always right in some big way.

Besides, I’ve been correct about everything thus far concerning this situation. I wish I could just trust myself – trust that I know what is good for me better than others do. I’m trying to just keep what I think about it to myself and not discuss/get advice from other (i.e.: try to confirm what I already know to be true based on others’ opinions). Because most of the time when I do bring up the situation and how I see things, people try to talk me out of it and I end up second guessing myself. But I’m an adult and I have to make my own decisions.

It’s so hard to trust my intuition when it’s so completely against what everyone else thinks. It’s scary and I feel so alone. What if I make a wrong choice by following my intuition? Could I really be so horribly wrong? I’d feel so stupid and everyone would say “I told you so!” But if I don’t follow it, I know I’ll forever be wondering what if, and if there is one thing I hate more than anything, it’s to regret things.

I think I already know the answer…what I have to do in this situation…I have to trust myself.

u know what naanu.. u can’t help in it.. u only can pray..
i know it’s disturbance.. it’s uncertainty…

as it is.. u don’ trust them easily.. u want more details.. u have stoped meditation n reiki practice for years ago.. so why don’t u just ignore it..
this is has to happen..
u hardy believe n always skeptical abt wht u feel.. even u ignore what u see in dreams.. that u even u don’t believe what u see..
better not to think abt them..

*why i don't trust them..

might b answer is simple.. fear of what if they are wrong..

but on the contrary, at every time they were right..

listen guesses can b wrong rs.. not intuitions.. all the time u console as if its just ur guesswork.. this is what u r trying to do all the time.. n even the 2nd thing is guesses also can turn up right.. doesn’t it..

i remember when i was in 10th at that time one of my family member who was aware of these always had asking wht going to happen next. & i used to get irritated.. as intuitions are just hunches.. which i can’t control.. n those wasn’t in my hand..

more over… after some year that person always skeptical abt me.. always doubted on me that i read her thoughts.. or i do something with her.. i was feeling soooo depressed.. but i know i never tried it.. actually i had low confidence abt myself, low self esteem most of the time to do anything like that..

but i had lost all my self-control & self trust in all these things..
it was always too difficult to meditate in front of them as i was caring abt what will they think… it ruined all the things n my thoughts..

now a days .. these intuitions tells me what i don’t want.. again i wish to ignore it as it hurts… ok.. let it go…
u know what the only thing is in ur hand… pray..

in this intuitions, that unknown twist in stomach.. that something going to b wrong..
but its mostly that things are turn up which i think it is wrong.. or the things those i feel bad.. those are not necessarily really bad for me n my life but can create some stress for that time..
when i was so much caring abt others.. i was always full of these turmoil intuitions..
i don’t know how these can help me.. most of the time i consider them when they occur.. as..it might b one of fear of mine..

is trusting one’s intuition the same as listening to one’s heart?

why n what are u expecting? what do u want? what do u want to say? what are u insecure abt? tell me..

i think u are not getting answers cause.. this is not the time… god wants u to concentrate on other important stuff in ur life at this time… work all your assignments stufff n other relationships.. mum.. mav.. etc..

that day.. when i was going to the optician.. before leaving the home. i said at least for thrice to mav that.. i think i should go tommorrow, n today i will finish this stuff… again while at the door i said to siddh.. why i feel i must go tommorrow???.. n when we reached there.. that shop was closed…

many times it happens n i ignore it all the time… somehow i m so firm on i don’t want listen anything of myself.. i console myself that its just my fear..

thanks that i m back to same state of thinking…
whatever going to happen is for good reason…

let’s see what is that? only 2 possibilities.. either i could be a wrong or right…
but hope i will get answer soon….
hard part is always to wait.. but universe knows when there is the right time for me to get all my answers…