trust my intuition

I ignore it sometimes when it comes to uncertainty (how many times, woman – uncertainty=no). It was saying ‘argh – don’t sign up for guitar class’ (or rather, i felt a block) but I have anyway. I didn’t really get that block until I signed up. It was a spontaneous thing. We’ll see how things pan out anyway. The block is not fear and I can usually make that distinction.

Otherwise I am completely paying attention to it – especially when it comes to people. I’m surprised at how often I have ignored this block in the past and attempted to push myself through it often enduring unpleasant situations. I read somewhere that where there is a block you should turn away from it and ask ‘where can I find a door that is actually open?’

Anyway I am just enjoying listening to it and allowing it to provide rational guidance.

from an old friend. I don’t know how to feel about it. Something is not quite right.

You have a 50/50 chance of getting it right. Trusting my intuition, I picked right. Right wasn’t the correct way.

Either way, we had an excellent time, and got home safely.
I blame Billy Joel for keeping is calm :)

Intuition gets mixed up with fear etc. all too often.

on my move back to Albuquerque this morning and it was very positive. The cards I hoped to draw—like the World, the Wheel of Fortune and the Death card—all showed up. This indicates changes that are cyclical, a positive relocation, the end of a situation, etc. I drew a lot of major arcana cards actually, indicating that there are changes that are being caused by cosmic forces. I am very happy about this. I know I am on the right track about going back. Hopefully I can maintain this feeling.

Trusting my intuition isn’t something I do once and then forget about, but now that I’m in the habit of going with my gut and trusting my instincts, I’m going to mark this off.

Before I do, however, let me explain why I think trusing intuition is so important. All day long, at work, at play, running errands, and just sitting back and resting, intuition evaluates our experiences. When something didn’t seem right, maybe it was the way somebody shifted their eyes when they told us something, or maybe something they did or said contradicted with a piece of information we encountered through a third party, our intuition gives us a warning. Whether we heed the warnings or ignore them determine how sensitve we are to them in the future.

I’ve started going to a group that talks about this. I felt like crying at the first meeting I went to because I felt…just a lot of love for some reason. I think I felt grateful and understood about something that I’ve never really completely understood.

Ezra Pound. I swear, if it isn’t right i’m going to go mental and say something hurtful to it then i’ll realise that i’m hurting myself at the same time so i’ll feel sad and comfort myself with food and…the poetry of Ezra Pound. so i’ll do a 360 and my intuition will turn out to have been right in the first place. too clever.

Really, why did I write this entry?

(on the + side, I decided not to attend a function I didnt want to attend and of course – I feel great and have no regrets whatsoever) :)

I am still always so astonished that I ignored it for so long but it can be very easy to do.

Keep yourself to yourself for now and don’t get so involved socially. I feel a block there maybe because the presence of a group of people is causing me to become distracted (primarily because i would like to gain their social skills and I am kind of listening as a way of getting tips). I guess I am confusing ‘learning from them’ with ‘wanting to be a part of that group’ and yet I also understand that although witty, I dont really agree with a lot of the shallowness within the group so erm…I need to reign my attention in a bit and focus on myself and what matters. They should be leaving soon and for some reason that also makes me slightly anxious. Maybe it symbolises being left behind too? I really need to focus on me me me instead.

Relating to this, a side of me has “grown” – it wants to project how I feel inside. I guess it’s a sense of wanting to be ‘bigger’ than I am (talk more, have a greater presence). I’m not sure if I feel it is as hard as I used to think it was. I feel such a weird inner drive for this that I feel as if I could almost impose myself onto other people to the point of attacking them with my inner joy. That’s not right so i’ll calm down a bit.

the little voice inside you … is oh so hard.. but worth it!!