Get baptized.

Jesus calls all his people to get baptized so i will go and do it!

i want to get baptized

I did it, being baptized was exhilerating. A lot of family and friends came. the focus remained on my baptism and my bf’s baptism. I’m glad we didn’t have a huge party. I can’t believe I’m finally baptized, it’s awesome. I shared a brief testimony, it’s a huge step for me. horray.

Now my boyfriends & my baptism will be on Sunday, June 22nd. Horray. It’s been pretty stressful waiting to hear back from the pastor to reschedule. I couldn’t even concentrate in the sermon today. Alas, the changed date was implied by him not e-mailing me.
I think I will make invitations now. It isn’t as overwhelming anymore. I pretty much convinced my boyfriend to invite our families to the baptism and after party. I don’t see why we wouldn’t.

I was kind-of unsure, because I didn’t know what would happen, but I mentioned that I would like to be baptized at the church picnic along with a younger girl, and my friend took me up to the pastor and I told him and he said okay! So he read to us from the Bible and I was slightly afraid because everyone would be watching, and he sait it was like dying; you die to sin. Therefore we would be dunked COMPLETELY underwater…you don’t see just sprinkles of dirt on dead people, or on their heads do you? No…so we were going to go completely underwater in a “Grave” so we would die to sin and live for Christ Jesus and God. So the girl went first and said how cold it was,and everybody laughed, and then I went up the stairs and stepped into the tub, which had a seat, and man it was cold when I first got it! And I said, “I am Christine, and I want to live for God.” and I crossed my arms and the pastor took hold of my back and my arms and said by the power in him that he would baptize me. And I held my breath and waited for the dunking, and then I shut my eyes and he pushed me dow nand brought me up really quickly, and then I was streaming water everywhere and wiping my eyes and everyone was clapping. Apparently my head hit the bottom…the pastor was saying something about how tall I am…I kind-of feel it now, but at the time I didn’t know I hit my head! and I walked out, clothes completely soaked and clinging to me, holding onto the helper’s hand. And I stood there in my wet clothes and raised my hands to the sky and gave thanks. <3 and then I changed of course!! and others congratulated me and I felt so much calmer than I have felt in weeks, and I relaxed next to the people I love at the simple, wonderful church I love. :) It was wonderful!! hallelujah! :)

might be June 22nd now. my mom might come. i don’t think i’ll invite my bro or dad..me and my bf are trying to figure out the after party, we’ve been arguing a lot about it. the whole point is that Jesus already saved us, not to try to make a scene of it by inviting everyone we know..my bf looks at attention in a negative way. me on the other hand, i LIVE for attention, i’m just too shy. But, this is for Jesus, let us not forget to give him the credit and attention for our baptisms. so…wwjd? i think it’s worth celebrating, my bf definitely couldn’t deny how great it’d be to get everyone together despite our differences…no matter what,.. we do have God in common.

I need to send out the invitations tomorrow.
my church offered to do the invitations…but i’ve never seen them…
i’m not mad, i just need to make about 15.
I’m pretty excited since me and my bf are going to be baptized on the same day.
I think I’m ready…
i just need to write up a paragraph or so, like a testimony they want me to share…
I should say “I’m not perfect now, not much has changed other than being saved, I still am a bad kid, still trying to be unfaithful to everyone, still thinking of suicide, still hurting myself and probably the most fearful person of men and people in general, i feel lost most days and cry myself to sleep, im a hypocrite to say the least, i am lazy and I think I’m better than a lot of people, the only thing is that I accepted Christ and trying to learn about what that means, my past may be over, but bad habits die hard, and the little girl that rebelled 13 years ago, 10 years ago, 5 years ago, 1 week ago, she’s still inside me and trying to bring me down. I’m ashamed to admit that I depend on my depression for comfort and I didn’t even want to be baptized because I’m afraid what people will think of me. I deal with my anxiety by flirting with men…men twice my age…i crave the attention, i’m truly sick, so please don’t think I’m an angel, like my peers do just because I preach no sex, no drugs, no alcohol.”
haha, nah, I’ll talk about how I was raised in a UU church, didn’t feel it was my place, and finding myself in the midst of divorce and great transition I began to think suicide and hating myself wasn’t going to be fruitful, and then oh yeah I met this random dude off the internet in ‘05 and somehow we’ve been dating ever since…he brought freakin Song of Solomon on one of our first dates, it freaked me out, then he gave me a Bible for my 18th bday, and i kept it in the box. it took me a few months and my innate curiosity to read, and knowing i needed it, it came natural to accept it the summer ‘06. God really spoke to me thru D and showed me what life could be, I just was never taught. I had no more strength, I had to rely on these new words of wisdom to shape my life and make changes essential to salvation.”

Baptism by water will have no meaning for anyone who has not been baptized in spirit, nor will it have any more meaning than what one gives it.

At the local pool, I get baptized every summer, but it means nothing to be completely immersed in water when it’s simply for fun.

But the time I got baptized as a portrayal of my baptism in spirit, now that day was truly special and unforgettable, and that’s what makes baptism worth it.

Last Sunday me and my boyfriend spoke to the Pastor about baptism. My boyfriend also wants to get baptized :) so we scheduled it on Sunday June 8th in the middle of service…after a few songs and announcements but before the sermon. I’m super excited, I used to be nervous, but after seeing 4 people baptized, I realized it’s nothing to be afraid of. I need to approach it with a clear conscious and really understand what this means. I can’t wait to show everyone that I’m really committed to this, but not because I’m so great….but because that’s just how great God is :)

as a baby and again with my son.