stop pretending that I don't *really* smoke and just actually stop smoking

I have quit smoking for over 4 months now
It was the one situation in my life where i had NOTHING to lose and EVERYTHING to gain – wealth, health and happiness – No longer trapped by the nicotine cycle
Trust me – and do it cold turkey

Ok, so I haven’t had a cigarette for over five days now and I feel pretty confident that it’s over. The sad part is the battle was all in my mind, my body hasn’t even flinched at the lack of nicotine. I’m just plain done with wasting my money and time on an excuse to procrastinate.

this is going to take a while

Ugh, I’ve cut down my smoking by taking Chantix irregularly to about 1-5 a day. The bad days are due to my inability to control myself when drinking and watching others smoke while drinking. I have been able to go over a day without smoking—I just need to muster the strength to just stop. My desire to smoke is nil, it’s just the habitual ‘what do I do if I am not smoking?’ that gets me!

There are people with addictive personalities, and people without. I am without. I socially smoked and finally decided I like running much more than smoking, so I quit.

The first thing I’ve tried that actually makes me lose my desire to smoke along with alleviating the anxiety and mood swings that come with quitting. 2 months smoke free! woo hoo!

It’s been more than a year now. And I have to admit that I’m alot better lung wise.

I have to admit that I can use a smoke every now and then. I still crave it at those hard times. It’s probably the hardest thing to not take one and just tell myself to work through it.

I still have alot to work through though.

If you’re still working on this one, take time. It’s a hard thing to do and takes alot of inner strength. You can definitely do it. If I can, you can.

also of note: boyfriend’s mom in the hospital this weekend, having just been diagnosed with emphysema. smoker since age of 11. if this doesn’t put both of us off smoking for good, we have some serious problems.

broke all the boyfriend’s cloves into pieces, then after some mental self-convincing, did the same to my own. now the real test is to not buy any more, but at over $6 a pack, shouldn’t be too hard. most difficult will be to make sure the boyfriend doesn’t cheat, as he lives 2 hours away and loves to have a smoke with the guys. will be calling him to nag, of course.

Tomorrow February 17, 2007 will be two years to the day that I REALLY QUIT smoking. It is so worth it. If you would like support doing this Contact anytime… GOOD LUCK !!!! You will also STOP; SMELLING BAD, COUGHING, SPENDING BAD MONEY, LOOKING FOR A PLACE TO SMOKE, WORRYING IF YOU ARE OFFENDING ANYONE, WORRYING, WORRYING, AND WORRYING ABOUT SMOKING…It’s a big change and a lot of good stopping…....