All my friends are getting skinny and I’m getting older and fatter. WTF? I have SOOOO many resources for getting skinny and I just…keep…eating…and drinking…and sleeping…. uGH! I want to be skinny like my friends. 2 days ago

I THOUGHT I had a grip but… I lost it. Up to 147lbs.
I keep losing my focus!
“Begin with the END in mind and KEEP the end in mind!”
But I keep forgeting to focus on the end and I keep focusing on other things…my sleepiness, my man, my job, my mom, my procrastinations and frustrations…
KEEP THE END IN MIND and the END is 125lbs and I want the end to be on June 27 2014. My birthday! 3 weeks ago

and I HATE the way I look. However, that is me. Fluctuation when my goals fluctuate- When my priorities change. I know they are fluctuating BACK to health now.I can feel it. SOme day,I will be both wealthy AND healthy. Right now, I’m still feeling for the balance of those two awesome things. 1 month ago

I was 145 this morning. I know that this 3lb fluctuation is supposed to be “water weight” or whatever, but who cares? I’ll take it.
ANYwho, Today my mangos were rotten so I ate chaz’s bannana, a small tootsie roll, a small piece of danish, two small boxes of raisens, two cookies and about 2 oz of mango. All-in-all, I figure about 600 calories. That’ll be it for the evening. Should I have more? Who cares what you think!!!!! Just kidding…I’m on a roll! Should I do the Tough Mudder in September? Hmmmmm…. 3 months ago

So on Sunday I had potatoes a muffin a salad and some pancakes. There was lots of grease and starch in there but it was my only meal and I didn’t drink Sunday night.

On Monday, I had a mango, two diet hot chocolates, some veggies with oil and starchy stuff and a few nuts, and 4 marshmallows. I didn’t drink – again.

Today I’ve had a mango, a tiny piece of cake, and tonight? Another mango and leftover veggies. No marshmallows, no booze. I weighed myself today and I was 148 again. SeriouslY? Well, I’ve been here before and I know I need to focus on the challenge of how much I can do WithOUT instead of focusing on how much I can get by with.

I really need to focus on getting to my wild skinny self and how much fun it is to be skinny and wild. I’ve been there before and I wanna go back there again! 3 months ago

I worked out tonight for 20 minutes. I didn’t have any booze (day 2) and I ate light. So far, so good, and I feel great. I like this photo for inspiration. 3 months ago

I got up to 148 this past sunday. Eating and drinking = out of con trol! However, I’m back down to 145 today and I feel like I have some control again. I’ve been downing fiber drinks all day and just eating my typical veg meals at night so now I’m at least regular again. Next week I’ll start on my fruit/cereal meals during the day. I feel like working out again. I feel like I’m starting to see the light of day with my MOJO … 3 months ago

At weight watchers I’m 147. That’s ok. I ate and drank like a HORSE this season. Christmas has been so stressful. I finally got my stuff together yesterday and haven’t done too bad today, so I’ll be ok. 4 months ago

I did good until I snarfed all that Sees candy last night! Doh!!!
Anyway, I’m back in the saddle. Still not drinking. Had a few drinks on Monday but not since then. I’ll probably drink a few tomorrow and sunday. been going strong on cereal and blueberries. Need to buy more cherries…yum!!! Also, I need to buy more fruit and cans of veggies for quick eating. Today I did 10 minutes of pole work. it was hard to do Knee-ups! GOD! Still…gotta start somewhere, right? 5 months ago

I start weight watchers today. I’m so excited!!!!
I did really well with it last time and I hope it’s the catalyst that helps me THIS time. Also, I’m resuming my Tony Robbins Personal Power II sessions. Iv’e stopped focusing on my goals and that’s just crazy. 5 months ago

I joined a weight watchers group for next week.
I’m excited. Apparently I need the humiliation of weigh-ins to make me change my eating habits. 6 months ago

I might join weight watchers in january – hopefully they’ll meet close to where I work! 6 months ago

I’d like to weigh 125 lbs in 6 weeks. – Sept 29th.
That’s a loss of 15 lbs, or 2.5 lbs a week. yup. I’d LOVE that. That’s my goal. 9 months ago

1. cereal/fruit 275
2.cereal snack 200
3. 9 months ago

so far this morning I’ve eaten
1. Cereal/fruit 200 cal
2. 1 cup hexagon squares cereal snack 125 cal
3. 3 small plums 150 cal
4. Chewy sprees (leftover from friday)100 cal
5. peanut cluster 50
6. two bananas 200
7. beer 125
8. veggies 300
9. chips 200
10. nuts 200 = 1650 for today’s total. NOT good considering I got no exercise in there! 9 months ago

My local Shop N Save is open at 6am! That’s good news since it means I can stop there before work any morning and still get to work early enough to work out. I didn’t work out at all last week – didn’t diet well. I did cut back on my drinking some but I made up for it this weekend.
I am, however, OUT OF BOOZE – except for a can of Stag. I’m glad. I’ll be sober till Saturday.
I bought cereal, fruit and soy milk at SNS this morning to keep it all at work. I think this cereal fruit diet I went on last year helped because it was bland enough for me to not binge on, yet tasty enough for me to think I was eating well. PLUS, it’s comparatively low in salt (compared to my cereal killer salad) which will help me see results faster. I feel like I’m on my way. 9 months ago

I feel good. I went two nights without drinking and that makes me feel pysically better and less anxious about stuffing my face. I made collard green rolls and tortilla rolls all stuffed with broccoli/slaw and lentils and split peas, etc. VERY satisfying. I decided to to that route because I’m a tad sick of the cereal/fruit thing, though I did buy some more frozen fruit to stave off the sweets-after-savory cravings that I get. I’m assuming I’ll be down to 136 by this weekend. I’m working out regularly again too! Pole class was good last night! 9 months ago

I look SOOOO fat in my photos but I’m only 138lbs! WEll, that’s ok.
I can do this. I am so close to skinny, I just need to reach out and grab skinny instead of grabbing every piece of food. unless, of course, it’s one of my home grown tomatoes.
THEN it’s best to get that eaten! 10 months ago

I was hoping to make it to 135lbs by this weekend but I’m there already. I’ve been eating much MUCH lighter, with only occasional junk food and mostly garden veggies. No booze for 2 days. I shit my brains out last night. I took a laxative…I thought, “what the hell, I’ve been eating TONS of fries and potatoes and bread and grease for WEEKS – maybe I should just take one tiny half-dose of laxative to kindof help cleanse things faster” and I was up for an hour at 2am losing my religion. So ANYway, things are still good. I ate a piece of cake and a candybar today, but I ALSO ate 2 tomatoes and a cucumber and I have mORE veggies and fruit to eat and drink tonight. I am excited to be able to get to 132 by this weekend for SlutWalk! I want to be pretty again. 10 months ago

I’m pigging out on grapes because I have extra money.
I have tons of cucumbers and yellow squash.
Basil out the ass.
Life is really good! 11 months ago

I ate my guts out this weekend, ate only PBJ’s and veggies and two shots of booze yesterday.
139lbs.
Today? I have a date with lots of veggies again, a little oil in the form of dressing and sautee oil, some cake icing, and a beer.

BUT, I worked out this morning, I’ll work out for lunch (lifting weights again!) and I have zumba tonight.

I feel goood. I need to be 125 lbs in a 35 days. That’s my 50th birthday! that’s 14 lbs to lose…........not too bad! actually, not bad at ALL because once I hit 132, I’ll be feeling like a fucking PRINCESS! 12 months ago

Lots of little pitfalls that make a difference.
You know, the drink I drink because people goad me into it, not realizing that I’m trying NOT to,
or the extra tortilla wrap I eat because I spent so long cooking it and it’s just SOOOOO good,
or the birthday party at work and all the extra desert sitting around.
Ah well, I’m doing BETTER, and I am DEFINITELY getting stronger, working out every day and such, so I am confident in success. 12 months ago

Still at 140lbs. not so good. I’ve cut down on my eating somewhat, but it’s still not at the drastict and stringent level it was last year to really drop the weight.
I’m gonna try to lose 3 lbs this week.
Let’s see…137 by Saturday the 12th.
Ok.
Again, no drinking,
lots of cereal and salads and veggies.
should be ok! 12 months ago

Went UP to 143 but back down to 141 today.
I feel strong now. Getting my brain back in order is not the easiest thing, and I HAVE to get my brain behind me in order to withhold from all the food.
I did good yesterday and today.
Yesterday I had some sauteed veggies and a salad.
Today I had a bowl of cereal, one chocolate pretzel, a carrot with dressing and tonight I’ll have two carrot dogs.
that’s about 800 calorie.
I’ve started working out lightly in the am again and I’m wearing a pedometer for the “tread the med” deal. strong. 12 months ago

I overate a TON yesterday, and drank and took 2.5 caffeine pills. I went to dance class last night and was tired and exhausted and depressed.
I went to bed early and took a half a benedryl to ensure deep sleep.
I woke up groggy, but it’s 11:00am and I’m feelin’ pretty good. Listening to Tony Robbins helps, I think! He’s pretty uplifting.
So far, I’ve eaten a banana, an orange and a big bowl of cereal with fruit.
I’ve had a half of a caffiene pill. I figure I’ll have another bowl of cereal and two more fruits here at work and then a salad for dinner.
No drinking tonight. I need to get healthy. I want more energy. I need to get my MOJO back like I had last spring! 13 months ago

Was aiming for 140lbs today, but made 141 instead. That’s ok. I had one big oily meal for breakfast yesterday but ended up drinking yesterday and that added plenty of calories, plus very little exercise.
Today, I had two bowls of cereal/fruit, one banana, 4 pieces of candy, and I’ll have some vodka at mom and dad’s house tonight. that should add up to about 1100 calories or so. 13 months ago

I know that I’ll be much “stronger” when I’ve lost 15 lbs, just like I was last summer! I think that being smaller makes a HUGE difference when it comes to hoisting your ass over your head! 13 months ago

I drank but I didn’t overeat.
It’s surprising how little it takes to COMPLETELY overdue a calorie allotment.

Anyway, it’s Friday and I’ve managed to avoid the donuts though I DID bring pretzels in for chocolate dipping. Maybe I’ll do those on Monday. It’s 9:50 and I’m eating my first meal…cereal and fruit.

Orange at 11:30,

Salad and Banana at 3:00 ish…
I think I’ll skip dinner tonight. I know I’ll be drinking.
So today’s food should just be around 800 cal. It would be good to get some strength training in. Maybe when I get home from work I’ll hop on the pole and do some climbing, low v’s, and inverts. 13 months ago

Wow…how did this happen?
Oh well, I’m gonna have to do what I did last time.
Eat cereal and fruit, stop drinking during the week. I’m doing TONS of exercise, so I know it’s not that.

Tonight, I buy more cereal and fruit and soy milk.
I should have certain eating times…
9:30am, 11:30 am, 1:30 pm, 3:30 pm …two fruit servings, two cereal servings. At home I’ll eat at
4:45 (small snack/fruit)
and 8:00 salad or veggie with Chaz.
No booze.
I think that’s what I did before.
That’s about 1,200 calories.

Today? I’ll have cereal with soy creamer (it’s all I have) at
10:30
a salad at 3:15.
then pole class,
then home for Dinner at 8pm. More cereal since I will have gone shopping this evening after class.
Tomorrow I want to be down to 141lbs.
I am fine going to bed hungry tonight. Don’t overeat at dinner. 13 months ago

Not so good yesterday or Saturday. Too much drinking coupled with eating to absorb booze and eating to conquer the hangover blahs.
That’s ok.
I feel like I can stop drinking for this week. I had such a blast this last weekend, and things here are so great that I can’t imagine how booze can make it better, right? 14 months ago