life

waverly beddingwaverly blossom hill

i live in my wirld of insaneity!
why?
cause y life is not all tha great!
im a 17 year old teenager!
i struggle wit different problems!
i have over come so much in the 17 years i have been alive.
i take care of my self!
my mom doesnt do anything for m.
money i get from my father goes to her car payment.
the car i hardly ever ride in cauese my mother is to lazy to take me anywhere!
i deal wit emotional and verbal abuse!
every now and then pyshcal abuse!
i would love for someone to tell me everything will not only be ok, but i will make it!
my goal is t maeke it through life!

Open me up
This is just how I imagined it would be
The weight on my shoulders
Pulls me deeper in, deeper into the ground
Honestly did you really think we’d make it out of here alive?
Are we living?
What’s inside?
Is this the best that you can do?
Come show me life
I’ve been here sleeping
This is eating me alive
I can’t forgive myself
Bring me back to the ground
Would it kill you to be by my side?
This is my flag
I am surrendering
This is me without you
Anymore obvious and I’d be left for dead
What else is there left to say?
And to what do I owe this perfect occasion?
Must have been out of your mind
(Some say straight out of line)
And I believe there’s courage out there
Courage out there
Open me up
This is just how I imagined it would be
The weight on my shoulders
Pulls me deeper in, deeper into the ground
With my eyes to the sky
And I’m feeling lost
Who am I living for?
With my head in the clouds
And I’m feeling low
What am I living for?
And to what do I owe this perfect occasion?
Must have been out of your mind
(Some say straight out of line)
And I believe there’s courage out there
Courage out there
Come show me life
I’ve been here sleeping
Open my eyes
All of this time I’ve been wasting
Come show me life
I’ve been here sleeping
Open my eyes
All of this time I’ve been wasting
With my eyes to the sky
Who am I living for?

hi wats up my names…personall. anyway im a 13 year old blond chick with blue eyes and very bored. so give me conversation!!! :]

Life is not something that can be taught. Life is something that we must make. Only we can have the life that we dream of no one else can give you your hopes or dreams no one can not have every oppurtunity o do someting they want. WE are not the people who think about doing something we are the people whoi have done something to change the minds of many people it could be something that is not what you think it should be but it can be what you want it to be no matter what the day is its what is in the day and what you make of it No matter how we feel or what we do we all have a part in this world we just have to figure out what that part is If we look back and see th things that has bothered us most in life then we can find things to ficx our life for the better The best thinig you can do if you dont like your life is to change it make sometihing better of it if your not happy and what it is you want to do Be you dont fake for any be free Follow your heart and dreams and live like it your last you only get ine shot at this life so make it a good one…. There are probleyy a lot of mistakes in this but i dont care i’m just rambling so i’m not going back to fixanything ,,,

There are many things we may not ever understand. And everyday we ask our selves why. There is something you did and you think about it and say why. In life I find that I do that alot of things I ask myself why. Why can’t I fill? Why did Buy that? Why didn’t I pay that Why didn’t i see that coming. We over look our why and find that sooner or later you have another why on your mind eventually you start to break. All through life I have been asking myself why. I think once you get all the whys out of your life thats when your life actually begin. So this is my why.

Life has always been rough for me and I have had to fight. Even though my life might have not been worse then yours. You don’t know how I felt at that time I felt it, you dont know the pain that I felt when I felt it, and you didn’t cry my tears when I cried. Just like I have never felt what you felt, knew your pain, or cried your tears. I am (was) blocked with a wall that held every why, pain, and cry that never released every hateful and disrespectful thing I have seen and every piece of hate I have is in this wall. After twenty-nine years I can finally start tearing it down. I have stole, I have lied, and I have made mistakes, but I cant move on till I forgive myself. For seeing and not telling, for stealing and not knowing why, and for hating with out reason to hate. I’m starting a new chapter in my life… To Be Continued

You only get one life. Yeah there may be life after death, but the life you are born with you only get to do once. My belief is that we all are put here for a reason and we have to discover what that reason is. Now along our journey there are obsticals in our way in order to proced we have to accomplish the obstical. The problem is that we always dont know what the obsicals are. You can always over come what you think you cant accomplish. In my life there are things I thought would never change, things that I did that I wish I didnt, and things that I saw that I should have never saw. There were times that I tried to kill myself and times when I had a blast. After the second attempt is when I said theres a reason. When people say that ” I don’t know why that happened to me” think really hard and you will figure it out. There are some instanes you will never understand. My life has had it’s up and downs. I have laughed and I have cried. I have found love and lost love, I have had debt then no debt, I have hated and cared, and I have figured out my life. It took me 29 yrs and a life of sacrifce, but I figured it out. When you take a moment and look back on your life you will find something you did that you wish you never did, you will find times in your life where you couldn’t believe what was goiing on and you will see things more clearer. I have been too psychiatrist, psychologist, and councelers, and still things weren’t right. I don’t think medication is a cure. I believe it’s a cructh when it comes to psychiatry care (sometimes). People just need to realize that in there life shit is going to happen, and you have to find a way to get through it. Yeah you want to give up, and something in your mind is not right, but if you just take a moment to think you will figure it all out. Remember! It’s life you can’t predict was happens…

I find life really hard sometimes. Its hard to let the bad things go from my past. And it’s hard to put a smile on for my kids and everyone else. I hate that I feal like this. And i dont want to. I want to wake up everyday fealing posative. But its so much easier to just say the hell with it.

without it is death. I put big panties on sometimes and it helps. I feel all feminine after a while and get uncomfortable so I take them off. Still sometimes guys have to wear the panties. (NO I don’t REALLY wear them!)

I thought i had a life. It went bye bye. A new life came and I said, “Get the hell out of here! You suck!” It refused to leave; it hung around, ate my food, slept in my bed, made messes on top of my own messes, never flushed the toilet and was a general pain in the ass. Then one day I thought what does this life need to straighten itself out? So I gave it a hug and it threw up on my hair.

One day I decided to accept it as it was. It still throws up on my hair, but I’m getting use to it.

LOVE IS LIKE MAGIC SOMETIMES, IT CAN BE QUITE SURPRISING BUT SOMETIMES IT CAN ALSO BE AN ILLUSION. ITS NOT ABOUT HOW CUTE OR FINE HIM/HER MAY BE BUT ITS HOW WELL YOU TWO COMMUNICATE. IT CAN BRING YOU EITHER CLOSER OR FARTHER APART AND YOU SHOULDNT LOOK FOR LOVE. LET IT COME TO YOU.