become a better girlfriend

I try, very hard. But sometimes I never try hard enough. I get angry with him and he gets angry with me.

I try to tell myself it’s going to work out, but at this point, I honestly don’t see our relationship going much farther.

It’s been a little over 8 months, given him my world and all of my love.

I am absolutely in love with him, but seriously.
It gets worse and worse, every day. I’ve getting sick of it.

But I’m going to work on being a better girlfriend, but if he doesn’t work on it too, i dont think i’m going to be able to hold on any longer..

Just going through a very rough time..

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I need to make sure i always tell him i love him when he says it to me and dont just say ok or yeah i know .

my boyfriend and i have been together for 3 years.. 6 months of them three years we were off and on. we have finally decided that we are going to make this work. he is the biggest sweetheart i have ever met. he pays for everything, and when i said everything i mean everything. he has supported me more than my parents have in the last year. i love him to death and sometimes i could just strangle him. but my goal is to treat him the way he deserves to be treated. he moved a good hour and a half away from me so i can only see him on the weekends, which makes everything harder, because i can’t trust him at all. i have good reasons not to. but even through him moving and me not trusting him im still going to try and become better for him, and myself.

I’m back together with the love of my life and damn it feels good. it hurt like hell when we broke up a year ago but during that time i was able to meet new people, do a lot of stuff, focus on work and school and my family. in the year we were apart lots of good things happened for me and a few not so good things but thanks to all that I’ve become the person i am this year. the way he and i got back together was so weird. i ran into his friend who i set up with my best friend and on the side the friend and i started to talk and come to find out my ex hadn’t moved on after he broke up with me and he told me about all the little things that happened in his life and i was happy for him but i wasn’t about to call him or go looking for him. He ended up calling me a few weeks later (i wonder who encouraged that) we talked and just hearing his voice made old feelings come running back. and we kept at this for 2 months and finally he came out with it and said not only did he want to get back together but he wanted to get married. i was thrilled. even though there isn’t a ring on my finger its decision we’ve made but we’re waiting to tell the family and actually plan for it after i graduate.

As I said in my last entry I broke up with my last boy friend and at the end of it all I found out it was pretty unhealthy and I was able to move on with my life. After doing so I met someone new we were friends for 3 months then started dating we’ve been together a little over a month. It’s going really good, he’s a sweet heart but the weird thing about him is that he’ll say ever sweet thing in the book except I love you. He was still squirming with nervousness the first time he said it to me and even now on the days I tease him into saying it he still acts like that. I’m in love with him. I love that he lets me share the lime light with him instead of him being the one who shines all the time. I love that he takes note of my successes and remembers big dates with out me having to remind him again and again. I hope this works out for me because I’m tired of relationships that never work out.

lover boy and i broke up (awww) but i’m on to bigger and better things now focusing in school and my job and doing that i got a great promotion which i was syked about and i did great on my finals so i was able to take a summer vacation and what can i say its been going extremly well and i even met someone new. the last 3 months have just flown by. for a while i was really down about breaking up with my ex but the more i thought about it the better of a choice it was to just end it now instead of just prolonging it.

so he’s not moving to canada. he’s going to stay but we’re trying to figure out if he should move here or stay where he is. i really don’t mind how that works out because as long as were in the same country theres hope.

but on another note i can’t remember the last time we had an argument or even a small fight. every things been going great except that finals have had me really distracted so we haven’t gotten a lot of time together but thank god i’ll be done in a couple of days.

i’m doing so good and i’ve been on a role wich i’m very proud of but what sucks is that come to find out the man i love more than life its self is moving to freaking canada. i don’t know what to do because he dosen’t feel like its going to work and as much as i don’t want to avoid the truth that is the sad reality. he’s moving at the end of the year. as much as i want to ask him to stay i can’t because its the most selfish thing i could do, and if he leaves i’ll just slowly die inside. we havn’t broken up and neither of us wants to because we’re still crazy in love but i just don’t know what where going to do.

well when i posted my last blog i made a commitment to really try and after i decided that my boyfriend called me i reminded my self to not get distracted so far i think i’m on the right track because i paid real good attention to every thing he said even though we didn’t talk about any thing serious it felt really good to talk and laugh with him. i got to really express to him how i felt i think he has a real good idea know. are long distance relationship gets really hard but i love him for sticking it out. man i’m really proud of my self. i did have to make him repeat one or two things but it wasn’t because i wasn’t paying attention but because it was kinda hard to hear him. but i’m still very proud of my self :D